Monday, August 23, 2010

l0w sElf eSteEm

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oh, today is not my day..
it's always been better, day by day.. i start to like it, enjoying the days...
but now... first time menangis sebab kerja..
it's not about stress, it's definitely nothing to do with them..
i've been holding this feeling for quite some times.. i thought it's nothing... it's only the beginning of the carrier... bla3...
but now, i cry... benci perasaan macam ni..
sampai bila nak macam ni? i have no idea...
been compared, been judged in such a way... no improvement seen... everything is always bad about me.. nothing good~ dia ni bagus.. yang dia tu pula excellent... yang lagi sorang always confident, very good...
damn~ it's only me... never been better? don't have any chance for improvement? i don't know whether i'm looking for appreciation.. i don't even deserve it, how can i ask for it?
i have no idea... sangat tidak selesa dengan perasaan low self esteem macam ni~

Saturday, August 21, 2010

eDiSi rAmaDhaN~

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Alhamdulillah... ramadhan bertandang lagi.... bersyukur sangat sebab umur masih pajang untuk bertemu ramadhan... terima kasih Ya Allah... =)

edisi ramadhan kali ini.. sedikit sopan kan saya? yeay! :D
pertama kali sambut ramadhan dengan status diri "bekerja"
awal dulu risau jugak sebab konon mengada2, takut tak larat.. dusta belaka semua tu..
bila kerja, walaupun penat tapi tak terasa langsung.. rasa macam biasa je sebab yerla.. masa cepat berlalu... sibuk, ramai patients.. sedar2 dah balik.. berbuka... Alhamdulillah~

raya... baju raya tak beli lagi!!!
gaji, silalah keluar.. barulah saya pergi shopping.. :p

eh, post ni macam kekurangan motif la... dah tak tahu nak tulis apa da.. hahaha~
hepy ramadhan semua... =)

Sunday, August 15, 2010

k0mitmEn~

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setelah bergelar graduan (tak habis lagi version perkataan kegemaran ni rupanya), barulah terasa komitmen yang totally berbeza...
buat masa ni, memang tak ada angan2, impian, harapan, keinginan langusng untuk sambung belajar.. seriously! dulu memang ada... ingat nak sambung master lepas dah kerja, cari pengalaman..
sekarang rasa macam......... tak apalah.. sementara ada kerja tetap ni, teruskan la.. apa yang jadi lepas ni, we have no idea at all kan? tapi sekarang, my heart is in Sunmed~ =) (ayat kena gedik, baru mencapai misi.. apa entah misinya? lalala~)

so.. berakhirnya journey di UKM, saya kini di Sunmed.. komitmen kerja sangat2 berbeza dengan belajar.. langsung tak sama... tanggungjawab macam berat.. maybe orang kata "ala, budak baru kerja memang macam tu..." tapi, tak tahu la... penat ada, sedih ada, risau tak payah cakap la... plus, competition among colleagues sendiri, tiring than competing your own self... happy memang happy.. enjoy memang enjoy... but sampingannya? :p
oh post saya semakin serius... lalala~

temankan saya berusaha ok? insyaAllah, everything's gonna be fine... hopefully~ =)
(baru kerja, belum komitmen kahwin lagi! hahahahaha~ sepak la aku sekarang!)

bila post serius, saya tak main font colour2. tapi macam boring.. so, saya sengaja tambah2 di bawah ini untuk letak colour... lalalala~

Friday, August 13, 2010

sAyA kini bErgELar GraDuaN! =)

bAbbLinG bY nAmeLeSs 6 rEveRsE bAbbLinG =)

09082010
keramat kot! saya konvo... yeay~ *clap2*



4 tahun study.. rasa macam lama kan? tapi cepat sangat masa berlalu... kenangan banyak yang teramat~

i was happy with my convo.. first time i tried wearing different style of tudung.. chubby! searching for new baju kurung, one day b4 the convo.. hanging out with my family on the 8th and 9th.. it was, one of the most happiest day in my life..

but then, when u think back.. your life as a student, u kinda miss it... =)
working is great as well, but never be the same as student, definitely! school was totally different.. matriculation and university were on the different page of the book...
times wait for no men... including me~ now i'm 23!

so.. with the end of these, i'm now...
GRADUAN! hahaha... dunno why, i kinda like the word "graduan" (ada korang kisah??!! :P)

p/s: sangat sedih sebab tak dapat bergambar dengan kawan2 seangkatan lepas keluar dewan... rushing, and searching~ huuu...

Sunday, August 1, 2010

0ne dAy sTorY~

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hari ini hari ahad, esok isnin... mari bekerja~

semalam sabtu, pergi bangi ambik jubah.... colour pink u, ouch!
i'm in pink on 09/08/2010... feel free to come.. =)

bila cakap pasal ambik jubah, otak terus automatik fikir "mesti ramai tak hengat! nak kena berebut saiz lagi.. nanti dapat jubah besar2 (padahal tk sedar yang badan sendiri memang bukan saiz kecil kan) lalala...

bila dah sampai sana, terkejut sikit... sikit je tau! parking boleh dapat betul2 depan dectar.. yang hanya perlu jalan 2 minit untuk ke kaunter mungkin? (sebenarnye nak cakap yang tak ramai orang kat situ... metaforanya, parking depan dectar.. kalau ramai, sahih tak ada parking dekat) baru ingat nak jadi macam House MD... pakai metafora jee... cis! tak jadi... lalalala~

lepas tu, pergi alamanda... plan sangat banyak ok... lepas makan dengan seronok, borak kuat2, gelak terkeluar nasi, kami2 yang dah lama tak jumpa ni pun berbincang.. apa plan? nak lepak sampai midnight ni...
ok, pergi cinema... tengok tiket, tak ada yang sesuai dan berkenan..
next, bowling.. ramai, tak percaya.. 20 orang in the waiting list... jadi, sekian terima kasih... kirim salam je la kat abang jaga kaunter...

seterusnya... pergi mana? budak2 PDR... dah macam trademark pun ada... kami pergi karaoke laa pulaaa... aish~ memang tak boleh lari... ;p

PDRians, cendanas... serius rindu kamu semua... :(

p/s: penyakit takut kucing saya semakin serius! selama ni memang terasa "kucing, go away from me!" tapi semalam terasa macam "kucing, please don't come any nearer" (sila ingat nada percakapan saya macam mana.. i love using dialogues to describe my emotions)... perlu segera ubati... sebab dah rasa benci dengan diri sendiri macam gedik... need to love kucing soon!
 

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