sebab nak tulis kat facebook terlalu open.. menyesal approved friend request seniors ngan colleagues! :p
anyway.. last friday i made a very silly mistake.. and seriously, i don't consider that incident as my mistake at all pun.. things just, happened? wrong day, wrong time. and it just happened that i was there. i'm not egoistic at all.. i'll admit if it is my fault, but i know it's not.. but then, i'm being blamed? lebih kurang la... entah... ala, i'm just a less than a year working days, junior.. even though i knew that it's out of my control, and i'm not the one who suppose to be responsibled. even all my colleagues tried to make me feel better by saying it's not my fault la.. bla3.. well i still cannot get through this stupid feeling..
i tends to get nervous to work on the same thing again.. which i can't. that's part of my job.. i have to face the nervousness and get through the feeling of "semoga kes tu cancel.. hopefully I lunch masa kes tu".
call me unprofessional. call me coward. i am nervous and i feel the pressure. i don't want to get through the feeling. i just want to run. that's immature, i know.. but that's just how i feel, until this moment..
benci ok, datang kerja dengan pressure macam ni.. kalau bukan sebab working enviroment yang sangat di sukai, colleagues yang seronok, potensi besar aku cabut. oh, this is life~
what i'm trying to do now is being grateful. optimistic. even though i cannot get through the feeling when there is the same case again and again. at least, i have a job. everyone else might experienced something worse than mine. mine is just a psychologically affected. so.. thanks to Allah that give me a strength to at least, come to work.. =)
kekurangan mood untuk buat font color2...
0 rEveRsE bAbbLinG =) on "psychologically affected~"
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