wHat g0eS ar0uNd, c0meS ar0uNd~

what goes around, comes around.. =)

i miss my schooldays, schoolmates... eventhough we are still contacting, hanging out, but the memory of my days in secondary school is priceless..

i've got almost everything during my school days.. good grades, good reputation, active in sports especially netball, active in extra curricular like PPI, pantun, joining the debate team but i'm not the debater, just the writer.. :P i even had a romantic boyfriend! went to matriculation after SPM, went to ukm.. smooth journey all the way~ almost perfect fairy-tale life...

but nowadays, i'm not like that anymore.. but i don't mind at all.. because i already had what i want, what i need during my schooldays.. I AM TOTALLY GRATEFUL!

now?
eventhough i'm single with no special boyfriend, i still have a lot of friends to hang out with.. schoolmates, course mates, colleagues..
eventhough i'm newly orphan, i know that i have a caring and lovely sisters, cousins, grandmother, aunties.. it's more than enough..
eventhough my family now are depending 100% on our salary for all the households, bills and bla3, we know that we all had our own stabled job... what else should i ask for? this is more than enough..

my schooldays were heaven, i assure u.. but my life now is not that bad.. i used to have almost everything before this.. i'm being grateful for whatever i'm having now.. what goes around, comes around... =)

Adele - Chasing Pavements

Lagu ni mempunyai lirik yang so meaningful~ i love songs with good lyrics especially those with lyrics yang macam faham2 je keadaan jiwa I sekarang ni tau~ lalala...

Please, enjoy the video... Here's the lyrics if you don't have any intention to watch a video for now.. read the lyrics please? :p

I've made up my mind,
Don't need to think it over,
If I'm wrong I am right,
Don't need to look no further,
This ain't lust,
I know this is love but,

If I tell the world,
I'll never say enough,
Cause it was not said to you,
And that's exactly what I need to do,
If I'm in love with you,

Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even if I knew my place should I leave it there?
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere

I'd build myself up,

And fly around in circles,
Wait then as my heart drops,
And my back begins to tingle
Finally could this be it

Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even if I knew my place should I leave it there?
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere

Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even if I knew my place should I leave it there?
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere

dRaMa quEEn~

drama hari ni, bermula jam 12.00 tengah hari hingga 3.00 petang.. 3 babak air mata.. pergh, sayalah drama queen itu! hari ini hari penuh emosi betul la..

ok, berikut ialah babak2 yang sempat dirakam..

1st - buat salah, kena tegur.. mula2 ok, tak ada apa-apa langsung kot.. dah memang sedar salah sendiri walaupun bergetar jugak la lutut kena marah dengan kakak tua gemuk tinggi yang emosi~ tapi, bila cerita sampai kat senior besar sendiri, of course la i try to defend myself.. it's a common act.. who would commit mistakes on purpose? definitely not me.. nama pun mistake kan? so, i'm trying to explain the whole story, defending myself.. dan tiba2... tears coming out.. gila fragile hati wanitaku!! cis~~~~ depan orang ramai pulak... sorry, tak berniat buat drama langsung.. huhuu... my tears always come for a reason!

2nd - mendengar luahan hati orang lain yang mungkin kurang bernasib baik dalam percintaan... dia mula menangis... tiba2? ok, menangis sama2... sensitif ke? entah.. tak faham motif menangis bersama kan? me neither! tapi memang sedih.. memang menikam jantung la cerita dia..

3rd - seorang wanita yang umurnya layak dipanggil "ibu" bagi nasihat sikit kat kawan yang kurang bernasib baik tadi... ayat2 yang beliau sampaikan, betul2 menusuk sanubari.. menikam kalbu!! pulak tu, terus teringat kat seorang lelaki ni... nasihat ni memang general sungguh.. entah kenapa terkenang sangat lelaki tu sampai kami berdua yang mendengar ni menangis balik!! I miss him a lot la weh... tapi tu la, buat apa nak rindu orang yang tak sudi kan? dah ready nak let go dah.. kena strong je la.. takes time.. mungkin sebab mengharap sangat kot? tu yang sedih semacam..

itulah dia, 3 scenes drama queen, by me.. hari ini sungguh emosi.. call me mengada2, call me gedik ke apa.. serius tak pernah menangis kat office.. bagila cerita sedih macam mana pun! i only cry when i miss my parents.. my tears only for them.. hari ni lain sikit.. :p
well, i'm praying for tomorrow, to be better... :) InsyaAllah~

Maybe by SIck Puppies

I've got a pretty good song to introduce.. (padahal orang dah dengar kat radio sendiri dah.. tak kira, nk introduce juga!)
anyway~ i don't 'love' the song basically.. but i've 'read' the lyrics, then only i'm listening to the song.. wuu, the lyrics are too meaningful to me now.. in accordance to what i feel exactly, at this particular time~ like, seriously tembak tepat kena jantung, hati, or what ever u know the translation of HEART is..

i don't want to expose my secret of heart to you in my blog.. i malu lah! i memang macam ni, pemalu since dalam tummy mommy.. ;)

click the underlined link to listen or download the song.. credit to whoever shared the song... =)
i attached the lyrics for you.. enjoy!

Maybe by Sick Puppies

Maybe I'm a dreamer
Maybe I'm misunderstood
Maybe you're not seeing
The side of me you should
Maybe I'm crazy
(Maybe I'm crazy)
Maybe I'm the only one
(Maybe I'm the only one)
Maybe I'm just out of touch
Maybe I've just had enough

Maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try
So why does it feel so wrong?
To reach for something more
To wanna live a better life
What am I waiting for?
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change

Maybe it's hopeless
(Maybe it's hopeless)
Maybe I should just give up
(Maybe I should just give up)
What if I can't trust myself?
What if I just need some help?

Maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try
So why does it feel so wrong?
To reach for something more
To wanna live a better life
What am I waiting for?
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change

And maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try

And maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try
So why does it feel so wrong?
To reach for something more
To wanna live a better life
What am I waiting for?
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change

saya pun ada CNY sendiri~ :)

dah lama tak bermalam kat kampung... 2 days public holiday for the CNY, we went back to our hometown... balik biasa2, memang selalu gaban.. tapi memang tak bermalam... cuma kali ni kami overnight ok, 3 hari 2 malam..

malam pertama (otak kasi lurus, jangan simpang siur denganr ayat 'malam pertama' ok?), tak ada ubat nyamuk.. nyamuk serang cam manis gila lah darah dara saya ini! memang cari penampo je nyamuk2 ni... tidur sejam je, bangun sebab badan gatal2... terjaga, garu2... tidur balik... macam tu je la kerja kami2 ni... maklumlah.. nama pun balik "kampung".. bukan style kampung baru ok? style kampung yang maxis atau celcom segan2 nak lalu... tapi itu la yang seronok sikit.. macam bagi minda rehat.. eceh~ :P lagi2 otak tengah serabut sungguh2 ni... perfect timing la CNY kali ni... padahal aku tumpang cuti je kot.. :P

lepas tu pergi melepak kat alamanda.. tengok movie, cerita cina... serius redha.... sebab asalnya nak tengok cerita lain, full pula.... pasrah~

apa-apa pun, saja je nak kongsi... memang happy sungguh2 la balik kampung kali ni.. dengan cousins yang bengong2.. makcik yang sporting.. nenek yang duduk kampung tapi serius style dan selamba badak la.. :)

tapi yang kurang seronoknya bila makcik2, nenek dah mula tanya pasal kahwin.. yerla.. cousins + sisters, umur semua dalam lingkungan 24 - 29... adeh, dahlah single.. memang typical orang tua2 agaknya.. umur macam ni dah kena ada someone special untuk di bawa kahwin, mati.. tapi itu lah.. jodoh tak jumpa lagi.. malas nak menjawabnya.. aduhai, macam mana raya tahun depan ni? kena serang lagi.. :p