gimme a break~

i try my very best to put some effort on every single things.. but still, ada juga orang yang tak boleh satisfy. don't me give that stupid line by saying "oh, this is life. this is how it supposed to be".. boleh blah nak termakan ayat sedapkan hati tu..

come on la.. you said i'm bad at this particular task. i put some effort but then u saw me doing something else and you said i did it wrong. ok, i put some effort as well. i don't mind learning to be better. but, what is the BETTER person or radiographer u expect me to be? it is not ONE task, not TWO, not even THREE. it's more than that! it's like you know me with mistakes. gimme a break~ seriously.

i know, i understand each points you try to tell me. i need to learn to do it better than whatever crap i did before.. u teach, i learn.. but, the feeling that i have now is like
"i come to work everyday, 30 minutes earlier because i know that i have to do a lot of things early in the morning before we can start the day. but one day, i came late but still 15 minutes earlier. u saw me. and u said that i need to come earlier than that to get ready the machine". don't you know that i always come earlier??

semua jenis kesalahan, u said, it's me. because i'm junior? i'm trying to be professional here. but it's too much dah. almost everyday u come to check on me. i do appreciate it. yes, i sincerely do. i want to be better myself. but every single mistakes u claim it on me, i'm tired enough. fed up gila~ macam lah orang lain perfect. salah sikit, siapa yang kena? dan mana nak tahu siapa yang buat? u don't even there before that. when i did it right, u say nothing at all..

kalau boleh uji tahap keikhlasan saya sekarang, it's almost negative. let it be zero, but i don't want it to be negative. please, gimme a break. i want to stay eventhough i lost my passion and excitement dah.. ya Allah, kuatkanlah hati hambaMu ini... Amin~

s0metHinG aBouT mE =)

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lagu - saya suka dengar lagu campur2.. english, melayu, korea, jepun, chinese.. klasik, pop, irama malaysia, joget... tak ada masalah.. rock mungkin makan masa nak terima sebab saya akan tukar frekuensi radio bila lagu rock keluar.

drama @ movie - saya suka cerita english - leverage, NCIS, bones, criminal minds. banyak yang sci-fi, investigation and bla3... saya tak suka cerita hantu sebab agak takut. thriller, action tak apa. bunuh2, kejar asalkan tak ada hantu baju putih rambut panjang keluar.
cerita korea saya suka sebab lelaki yang handsome dan perempuan yang comel. bukan sebab jalan cerita yang slow tapi sebab mereka romantik, titik. cerita jepun pula saya suka sebab berinformasi dan ringkas. walaupun banyak nasihat2 yang panjang. cerita cina kantonis best sebab idea kreatif dan memaparkan sesuatu yang realiti. kalau mandarin best sebab comel2 tapi idea klise. dan maafkan saya sebab saya kurang gemar menonton cerita melayu. tapi saya cuba untuk suka.

pasangan :P - saya sangat suka lelaki yang ada sense of humor, tidak bosan dan sekaligus tidak membosankan saya. saya cepat tertarik dengan lelaki yang jaga solat. nampak kacak bila keluar dari surau/masjid dengan air wuduk kat rambut yang belum kering. ouch~ saya sangat2 suka dengan lelaki yang memahami saya sebagai saya. saya zira~ saya tak kisah couple dengan kawan baik sendiri sebab they know me well.. oh, love you forever laa!

jalan2 - saya suka sight-seeing rather than window shopping kat shopping mall. saya suka beli beg, kasut dan baju untuk keperluan bukan untuk membazir atau padankan kasut dan beg untuk certain baju, tidak~ saya rela pakai baju yang selalunya sama asalkan selesa. saya kurang gemar shopping melainkan saya PERLU cari kasut atau beg untuk di pakai. saya lebih suka duduk melepak di kedai makan sambil berborak daripada jalan2 di shopping mall untuk mencuba kasut atau baju yang bukan untuk di beli.

kedai makan - saya suka kedai makan murah asalkan sedap. dan tak kisah untuk order makanan yang sama tapi benci bila kedai makan itu ada kucing yang suka kuis2 kaki untuk bermanja atau minta makanan. saya tak kisah pergi kedai makan mahal untuk mencuba tapi jangan expect saya pergi sebab saya suka.

hidup - saya sudah bekerja, sudah berkereta. belum ada rumah atau rumah tangga. dan saya single, still searching for the one destined for me. :) hope to find him soon.

lagi? itu saja buat masa ni. tata...

Red Riding Hood

Baru menonton movie ini tadi, pada pukul 10.20 malam hanya di sebabkan tekanan perasaan sepanjang hari ini.. tahniah kepada cerita ini kerana terpilih~ lalala...

anyway, there's a few aspects that i can comment on this movie.. (bajet macam orang kisah la komen2 I ni.. :P)

1- cerita ni memang set2 cerita mengarut. adik beradik twilight, harry potter dan seangkatan dengannya di mana cerita mengarut dan tak logik inilah yang menjadi kegemaran saya... I love it.. so, expect la segala macam karutan sebab ini cerita pasal werewolf, basically.

2- cerita folk tale "little red riding hood" tu secara amnya memang tak ada kena mengana dengan cerita ini. mungkin ada watak werewolf dan nenek kepada si little tu, tapi adegan werewolf menyamar jadi neneknya dan bla2 tu, sumpah tak ada kena mengena. terasa macam cerita ni mencuri tajuk folk tale tu pun ada juga... (pendapat saya la ok)

3- gimik bersepah2 sampai penonton buat tekaan sendiri. siapa werewolf tu. baguslah jugak tapi terlalu banyak. macam adegan2 yang memang sengaja di buat untuk penonton salah teka pun ada. banyak! dan sahih2, saya cakap macam ni sebab saya salah teka. 3 watak ok. banyak sangat salah tekaan sebab banyak sangat babak yang dijadikan gimik.

kesimpulannya, I like this movie. not because of my stress level or the very handsome Peter and Henry as their heros (I LIKE PETER!!!). but, i just like it. my friends said that this movie is not worth it especially watching this type of movie on weekend. 14 hengget ya, harap maklum. but still, i don't find it wasted. :) saya suka~

oh ya. satu lagi. RED RIDING HOOD sebagai tajuk. tapi HOOD MERAH tu langsung tak berkuasa atau layak diletak sebagai tajuk pon. sebab hood tu........ hanyalah hood. hadiah dari neneknya. banggalah kau hood, kerana mendapat nama sebagai tajuk. tahniah~

psychologically affected~

blog dah jadi platform untuk luahan perasaan pasal kerja..
sebab nak tulis kat facebook terlalu open.. menyesal approved friend request seniors ngan colleagues! :p

anyway.. last friday i made a very silly mistake.. and seriously, i don't consider that incident as my mistake at all pun.. things just, happened? wrong day, wrong time. and it just happened that i was there. i'm not egoistic at all.. i'll admit if it is my fault, but i know it's not.. but then, i'm being blamed? lebih kurang la... entah... ala, i'm just a less than a year working days, junior.. even though i knew that it's out of my control, and i'm not the one who suppose to be responsibled. even all my colleagues tried to make me feel better by saying it's not my fault la.. bla3.. well i still cannot get through this stupid feeling..

i tends to get nervous to work on the same thing again.. which i can't. that's part of my job.. i have to face the nervousness and get through the feeling of "semoga kes tu cancel.. hopefully I lunch masa kes tu".

call me unprofessional. call me coward. i am nervous and i feel the pressure. i don't want to get through the feeling. i just want to run. that's immature, i know.. but that's just how i feel, until this moment..

benci ok, datang kerja dengan pressure macam ni.. kalau bukan sebab working enviroment yang sangat di sukai, colleagues yang seronok, potensi besar aku cabut. oh, this is life~

what i'm trying to do now is being grateful. optimistic. even though i cannot get through the feeling when there is the same case again and again. at least, i have a job. everyone else might experienced something worse than mine. mine is just a psychologically affected. so.. thanks to Allah that give me a strength to at least, come to work.. =)

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