2o1o in mEm0riEs

2010

- big day of my graduation from UKM.. always rindu2 each one of you.. PDR, Cendanas and all the orang2 UKM generally~ no names.. u know who you are.. =)

- working in SunMed.. first working experience after graduation... I'd love to be a permanent radiographer in SunMed throughout my career if I have the chance to.. I dislike jumping around.. =)

- my father had passed away... It's still hard to believe, harder to accept, hardest to forget.. cause I will always remember him.. always gonna miss him a lot.. Al Fatihah~

- having my first car.. and hopefully will be my only owned car... =)

- my first bonus.. makes me trying so hard to handle my financial matters? :p

whatever 2o1o had gave me, let bygone be bygone...
I'm looking forward for this new year, 2011..
don't know what to expect, don't know what to hope..
Let us all pray for the success...
chill~ :)

m00d iNsTaBiLitY

for me, people can be divided into two categories..
people I like, and people I dislike..

i hate going to work, thinking about "oh, kena jumpa orang ini... sangat tidak bermotivasi"
i love working when i think about "kerja, tolong orang sakit.. dapat duit.. colleagues best2"

bila kerja especially dalam suasana kerja yang melibatkan ramai orang, mulalah ada rasa kurang senang dengan orang lain.. dan yang sedihnya bila ada mulut-mulut yang bergosip pasal colleague sendiri... saya nak kerja lama kat sini! saya cuba senangkan hati semua orang... but that's definitely impossible...

sedih, bila kita tahu yang orang tu tak suka kita. cerita buruk pasal kita. it's like u have the feeling that u're not welcomed by some people.. tapi, again.. nak buat semua orang senang dengan kita? it's impossible.. i mean, SEMUA orang? no no no... i don't ask for that kind of possibility... i'm just hoping that what i gave, i am worth to have it back.. karma? :p

some says: bila kita mengumpat seseorang, maksudnya kita jealous dengan orang itu.. dan, secara jujurnya, saya TIDAK SUKA sama sekali dengan orang itu dan ini... tapi, saya TAK ADA SELERA dan TIDAK BERNAFSU langsung untuk jealous dengan mereka... oleh itu, saya bermotivasi untuk cuba mengelakkan gosip tentang mereka... dan nak tahu something tak? susah gila untuk tak bergosip pasal mereka yang tidak digemari! tapi, saya tetap berusaha keras..

I'm having this stupid crisis inside me.. hard to describe but still, i wanna tell you.. try to understand my point eventhough semua bersepai-sepai... :)

BaBbLinG~

dengan ini, saya mengishtiharkan...
setelah 6 bulan berkhidmat, kini jawatan saya telah pun disahkan! Alhamdulillah... kekekeke...
dan untuk pertama kali dalam hidup saya selama 23 tahun, yang jelas dan terang masih muda ini, saya telah mendapat bonus hujung tahun! oh, saya gembira ni.....
p/s: tujuan hamba menaip dengan yakin dalam blog tentang bonus hamba ini, bukanlah untuk dirompak atau di pow oleh kawan2 ok? sila jangan cuba minta belanja.. harap maklum.. lalalala~

anyway.. baru lepas baca blog2 junior ukm... seronoknya rasa membebel pasal study.. new sem, thesis...

rindu PDR, rindu cendanas... rindu ukm... :(

bila dah kerja, nak update blog pasal kerja rasa macam entah pape entah... apa je nak cerita? nak update pasal hidup pula? apa je jadi? pergh, barulah sedar.. hidup ni sangatlah routine...
do I have to find something new and fresh to alter my routine?
contohnya.. colleagues ramai dah pergi sauna and gym yang free for staff.. ramai pergi after work.. motifnya? slim la of course... boleh masukkan dalam azam tahun baru ni! :D selain slim, boleh mengisi masa lapang jugaaa.... **bajet korang kisah la ni.. tu sebab bebel tak sedar diri**

lepas ni, bleh buat post pasal azam tahun baru pula... 2011.. **walaupun most of the time, azam tu cuma penghias blog je... tak pernah struggle nak achieve by the end of the year pun...**
kalau tanya azam 2010 dulu, sumpah tak ingat pun!

ok.. dah la ni... sebenarnya simpati dengan blog ni... sunyi sepi macam tak ada tuan! so.. saja nak buktikan, tuan dia still suka membebel... :p

bErkUrUn LamA~

oh tidak! "berkurun lama... ku rahsiakan... (lagu exist ok, jangan salah lirik... )
lama sungguh ketidak pengupdetan blog girlish ini.. silalah rindu saya ok? baru macam semangat kobar-kobar nak post ni...
tapi kalau tak ada orang rindu pun, kena post juga.. kalau tak, apa guna blog kalau setakat nak buat sawang ok... lalala~

anyway, hidup macam biasa... banyak benda jadi baru-baru ni.. besar2 punya bagi impak dalam hidup! tapi, tak adalah baru sangat.. dah agak basi sebenarnya memandangkan post terakhir adalah selepas deepavali.. bikin malu daa...

nak cerita semua, macam malas.. banyak sangat... nanti post panjang2.. tak ada gambar pula tu? tak thrill la... hidp mesti ceria.. **tetibe**
so, mesti ada yang sakit hati kan? setakat cakap benda jadi tapi tak nak cakap benda apa yang jadi tu, apa faedahnya? ingat bank ke, ada faedah2? no no no...

apa2 pun, terima kasih kepada yang sudi bagi ucapan kat fb tu... saya redha walaupun sukar teramat untuk terima dan melepaskan... itu semua ketentuan Ilahi... :) semua yang terjadi ada hikmahnya.. saya percaya! yea...

life goes on.... cari duit, cari pakwe.. lalala~ hidup makin ke depan, bukan main cak2 tengok belakang ok! jom2.... pergi depan, tengok tv sampai berlubang skrin..

kaMi bErcuTi~

oh, Fraser's Hill sungguh indah ok? the scenery is superb~ sempena cuti deepavali, kami ke sana beramai2.. hoo yeah!
but to be honest kan, nak naik bukit tu memang sangat mencabar... liku2 kehidupan sungguh.. tapi for me yang tak mabuk sangat, i think liku2 kehidupan tu worth it sungguh kot..
tapi those yang macam cepat mabuk, mungkin kena think twice kot? kakak saya dan sepupu saya muntah ok, on the way... :(

TAPI~ saya sangat suka percutian family kali ini.... fraser's hill sangat cantik... pemandangan sangat indah! udara sangat segar.. tidur sangat sejuk... (saya tidur pukul 10 ok, macam esoknya nak pergi kerja? petang tidur lagi.. lalala~)

here's some pics.. =)

en0uGh tRyinG!

i have my own principal...

"every trial, has a limitation...
once you reach the limit, and you haven't get whatever you want, let go then"

yes, i believe that way...
when i know that i have tried the very best i can, but still i cannot reach the goal, i'm giving up.. i don't think it's necessary for me to push myself harder... i know, it's a bad motivation to myself... we should aim for something and try to reach it..
but, enough is enough..
there's a lot of pathways that i can choose.. why waiting and trying for that only one? no no no...
this is how i believe... i don't mind loosing the only thing i want, when i've tried the best enough.. i love myself~

p/s: this is not about love (but still, can be used jugak.. :p more likely to my "life")

wRitiNg~

I love writing.. very much~
eventho my novels are incomplete, my short stories are not for publish, my poems are not that good..
but still, I love to write.... i want to create my own style of writing... sempoi, but the messages are still there...

now, the mood to write is somehow missing... once in awhile, the mood comes suddenly... then, brainwash the idea, which also comes suddenly... finally, the writing part, after the mood and the ideas are there...

next, oh, nothing..?
i'm not writing...
dush!!

why?? no idea! i'm not a busy woman... anak berketul2 ke, kerja sampai malam ke.. hell no!

i want my writings..................................
miss the enthusiasm... :(

taGGed~

oh, ini hobi lama sayaaaa..... mula addicted time aktif frenster dulu.. omoe frenster, apa khabar agaknya? :(

oh ya... mari menjawab soalan2... tagged by jauh-mata-dekat-di-hati senior.. chidah hikki! =)

1-Name one person who made you laugh last night?
:: aishah.. dia buat lawak sengal dalam komen2 fb... :D

2-What were u doing 1 hour ago?
:: pergi workshop, ambil kereta.. siap diservis.. yea!

3-What was da last thing you said out loud?
:: "oi! duduklah sini!" to my sis... this is just how we interact... say everything out loud.. :p

4-Where's da next place you're going to?
:: tomorrow going to JJ.. karaoke with schoolmates... :D

5-What was da last thing you paid for?
:: servis kereta.. :(

6-Where were u last night?
:: sweet home klang... (gaya ala2 sweet home alabama) lala...

7-What's da best ice-cream flavour?
:: honeydew, especially those served at Johnnys.. YUM3!

8-Do you wanna cut your hair?
:: just did..... kinda short sekarang ni.. :(

9-Do you love to "melatah"?
:: i don't "love" melatah.. sometimes, it happens... tapi, masih boleh dikawal..

10-If that so(melatah)what will you said out loud?
:: oh mak kau... standard one.. :p

11-What does da last text-msg received say?
:: 'ok2.. nnti aku msg.. aku kat luar ni...'

12-Will you get married in da future?
:: insyaAllah... soalan ini terlalu subjektif... lalala~

13-Do you chew on your straw?
:: nope.. it's not chewing.. just a bite... haha...

14-Do you make-up your own words?
:: i'm not really sure myself.. i'm a copy-cat person... terikut2 orang sahaja... my own? nope kot..

15-Is there anyone u like/love right now?
:: YOU.. wasting t00 much times for him.. sungguh kebodohan~ but... enough is enough..

16-Tag to other 5 blogger/more
:: jun
:: mai
:: padil
:: zack
:: SKMS

mAri LangGar2?

bila kerja, hari2 atas jalan raya, di dalam kereta... sudah lah kereta sebelah, depan, belakang memang banyak... bila tertekan, terjumpa pulak pemandu2 yang macam ^&^$&*@$#!*@^
sungguh layak dilanggar..
mari saya beri contoh yang cam best.. boleh? (best pada saya, tidak semestinya best pada kamu juga kan... lalala~)

• bila jalan jam, dia potong dengan selamba... bila tak jam pun dia potong dengan selamba badak... "kau dah kenapa?" (dalam hati) rasa nak langgar tak? jom langgar sama2!
• bawa 80km/j di lorong paling kanan... lagi2 time kau dah lambat, kereta tu elok2 depan kau... 2 minit tak apa lagi... kalau 20 minit pun sama jugak, tak paham2. jom langgar kereta dia!
• bila hujan lebat semacam, dia tak buka lampu da... hello bhai, saya tak nampak kereta kamu nanti.. memang minta kena langgar mungkin?
• saya terpaksa lalu roundabout... saya sedih bila kereta depan saya takut2 nak masuk... saya terpaksa tunggu dengan sabar... tapi............................ bila saya terlambat pergi kerja, saya macam nak tolong tolakkan kereta dia supaya dia jadi lebih berani!
• saya nak menghala ke barat... tapi hala ke timur jam sangat.. saya nak keluar lorong, tapi ada pemandu sedikit sengal boleh stop di petak kuning... bhai, mana boleh stop kat petak kuning.. ambil lesen basikal betul.. kalau tidak, saya dah boleh lalu... saya rasa nak pancitkan tayar kereta dia...... :(
• bila orang tak nak beri belas kasihan bila saya nak tukar lorong... saya dah bagi signal, dah angkat tangan.. (sopan kan saya... lalala~) tapi dia tak bagi... lepas tu pecut laju2 padahal dia jauh lagi sebenarnya... lagi2 kalau perempuan buat macam tu.. konon hebat lah agaknya? oh, memang mintak pelanggar..
  

entah kenapa, banyak sangat yang saya tak puas hati dengan pemandu2 jalan raya... ini baru 4 bulan ulang alik pergi kerja, jalan jam... macam manalah kalau 4 tahun? nak jadi polis trafik boleh?

p0sT em0!

aku bukan minta balasan atas apa yang aku buat...

tapi kalau kau dapat tunjuk sedikit penghargaan, aku akan gembira tak ingat..

tapi, jangan katakan penghargaan, alih2 penghinaan yang aku dapat...

orang kata, tak kisahlah apa yang kau nak buat..

asalkan, aku buat cara aku... akhirnya, Tuhan tunjuk juga..

bukan aku maksudkan aku ni baik sangat, kau pulak sebaliknya...

tidak sama sekali..

tapi, aku dah penat dengan apa yang kau dah buat..

bukan sekali dua..

tapi sampai tak terkira...

tak payah la nak terasa...

post ini bukan untuk kau..

tapi untuk sentiasa ingatkan aku...

supaya sentiasa berfikiran bijak dan waras dalam apa2 yang ada kena mengena dengan kau..

apa2 pun, aku sangat2 terhina dan terkilan sangat sekarang ni kerana kau

NOKTAH

sAyA suKa rAyA!

OK, blog I memang lapuk gila, taknak kawan dengan blog dah.. berdebu2! previous post pasal "pre-raya" .. duh? sekarang dah raya ke berapa? shame on you nameless!! (mukadimah kena menggedik, baru happy nak menulis... :p)

so... di hari raya yg keberapa entah ni **sumpah malas nak kira** saya ingin mengucapkan...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA
MAAF ZAHIR BATIN..

(walaupun raya dah nak basi, tapi kita still raya ok.. terimalah ucapan penuh keikhlasan aku itu........... )

di kesempatan ni, saya nak minta maaf kepada sesiapa yang pernah disakiti, diumpati, dikasari, di apa2kan la sepanjang perkenalan kita.. saya manusia biasa, banyak buat silap.. maafkan saya ok! =)

pRe rAyA.

wohooo.. sudah mahu raya la bhai~
mengapakah mood sedikit kurang.. adakah kerana umur semakin meningkat? omoe!
gaji bulan ini kena spend sikit untuk duit raya... **first time**
duit raya I bagi ada limit umur ok~ untuk BUDAK2 berumur kurang 10 tahun saja *gabak sikit kasi terang*.. itu pun atas budi bicara.. kau buat jahat dengan aku, menangis2.. kirim salam~ hahaha...

marilah mencari mood raya walaupun lagu raya kat radio banyak baru2.. tak sentimental la.. :(
ada masa lagi... di samping mencari malam lailatul qadar, insyaAllah... =)

l0w sElf eSteEm

oh, today is not my day..
it's always been better, day by day.. i start to like it, enjoying the days...
but now... first time menangis sebab kerja..
it's not about stress, it's definitely nothing to do with them..
i've been holding this feeling for quite some times.. i thought it's nothing... it's only the beginning of the carrier... bla3...
but now, i cry... benci perasaan macam ni..
sampai bila nak macam ni? i have no idea...
been compared, been judged in such a way... no improvement seen... everything is always bad about me.. nothing good~ dia ni bagus.. yang dia tu pula excellent... yang lagi sorang always confident, very good...
damn~ it's only me... never been better? don't have any chance for improvement? i don't know whether i'm looking for appreciation.. i don't even deserve it, how can i ask for it?
i have no idea... sangat tidak selesa dengan perasaan low self esteem macam ni~

eDiSi rAmaDhaN~

Alhamdulillah... ramadhan bertandang lagi.... bersyukur sangat sebab umur masih pajang untuk bertemu ramadhan... terima kasih Ya Allah... =)

edisi ramadhan kali ini.. sedikit sopan kan saya? yeay! :D
pertama kali sambut ramadhan dengan status diri "bekerja"
awal dulu risau jugak sebab konon mengada2, takut tak larat.. dusta belaka semua tu..
bila kerja, walaupun penat tapi tak terasa langsung.. rasa macam biasa je sebab yerla.. masa cepat berlalu... sibuk, ramai patients.. sedar2 dah balik.. berbuka... Alhamdulillah~

raya... baju raya tak beli lagi!!!
gaji, silalah keluar.. barulah saya pergi shopping.. :p

eh, post ni macam kekurangan motif la... dah tak tahu nak tulis apa da.. hahaha~

hepy ramadhan semua... =)

k0mitmEn~

setelah bergelar graduan (tak habis lagi version perkataan kegemaran ni rupanya), barulah terasa komitmen yang totally berbeza...
buat masa ni, memang tak ada angan2, impian, harapan, keinginan langusng untuk sambung belajar.. seriously! dulu memang ada... ingat nak sambung master lepas dah kerja, cari pengalaman..
sekarang rasa macam......... tak apalah.. sementara ada kerja tetap ni, teruskan la.. apa yang jadi lepas ni, we have no idea at all kan? tapi sekarang, my heart is in Sunmed~ =) (ayat kena gedik, baru mencapai misi.. apa entah misinya? lalala~)

so.. berakhirnya journey di UKM, saya kini di Sunmed.. komitmen kerja sangat2 berbeza dengan belajar.. langsung tak sama... tanggungjawab macam berat.. maybe orang kata "ala, budak baru kerja memang macam tu..." tapi, tak tahu la... penat ada, sedih ada, risau tak payah cakap la... plus, competition among colleagues sendiri, tiring than competing your own self... happy memang happy.. enjoy memang enjoy... but sampingannya? :p
oh post saya semakin serius... lalala~

temankan saya berusaha ok? insyaAllah, everything's gonna be fine... hopefully~ =)
(baru kerja, belum komitmen kahwin lagi! hahahahaha~ sepak la aku sekarang!)

bila post serius, saya tak main font colour2. tapi macam boring.. so, saya sengaja tambah2 di bawah ini untuk letak colour... lalalala~

sAyA kini bErgELar GraDuaN! =)

09082010
keramat kot! saya konvo... yeay~ *clap2*

4 tahun study.. rasa macam lama kan? tapi cepat sangat masa berlalu... kenangan banyak yang teramat~

i was happy with my convo.. first time i tried wearing different style of tudung.. chubby! searching for new baju kurung, one day b4 the convo.. hanging out with my family on the 8th and 9th.. it was, one of the most happiest day in my life..

but then, when u think back.. your life as a student, u kinda miss it... =)
working is great as well, but never be the same as student, definitely! school was totally different.. matriculation and university were on the different page of the book...
times wait for no men... including me~ now i'm 23!

so.. with the end of these, i'm now...
GRADUAN! hahaha... dunno why, i kinda like the word "graduan" (ada korang kisah??!! :P)

p/s: sangat sedih sebab tak dapat bergambar dengan kawan2 seangkatan lepas keluar dewan... rushing, and searching~ huuu...

0ne dAy sTorY~

hari ini hari ahad, esok isnin... mari bekerja~

semalam sabtu, pergi bangi ambik jubah.... colour pink u, ouch!
i'm in pink on 09/08/2010... feel free to come.. =)

bila cakap pasal ambik jubah, otak terus automatik fikir "mesti ramai tak hengat! nak kena berebut saiz lagi.. nanti dapat jubah besar2 (padahal tk sedar yang badan sendiri memang bukan saiz kecil kan) lalala...

bila dah sampai sana, terkejut sikit... sikit je tau! parking boleh dapat betul2 depan dectar.. yang hanya perlu jalan 2 minit untuk ke kaunter mungkin? (sebenarnye nak cakap yang tak ramai orang kat situ... metaforanya, parking depan dectar.. kalau ramai, sahih tak ada parking dekat) baru ingat nak jadi macam House MD... pakai metafora jee... cis! tak jadi... lalalala~

lepas tu, pergi alamanda... plan sangat banyak ok... lepas makan dengan seronok, borak kuat2, gelak terkeluar nasi, kami2 yang dah lama tak jumpa ni pun berbincang.. apa plan? nak lepak sampai midnight ni...
ok, pergi cinema... tengok tiket, tak ada yang sesuai dan berkenan..
next, bowling.. ramai, tak percaya.. 20 orang in the waiting list... jadi, sekian terima kasih... kirim salam je la kat abang jaga kaunter...

seterusnya... pergi mana? budak2 PDR... dah macam trademark pun ada... kami pergi karaoke laa pulaaa... aish~ memang tak boleh lari... ;p

PDRians, cendanas... serius rindu kamu semua... :(

p/s: penyakit takut kucing saya semakin serius! selama ni memang terasa "kucing, go away from me!" tapi semalam terasa macam "kucing, please don't come any nearer" (sila ingat nada percakapan saya macam mana.. i love using dialogues to describe my emotions)... perlu segera ubati... sebab dah rasa benci dengan diri sendiri macam gedik... need to love kucing soon!

uPdAte~

walllaaaweh... blog berhabuk, stylo! =)

sebulan tak update blog, konon macam sibuk tak ingat kan? padahal every single night, my facebook and ym is on...

anyway! update...

working - is sooooo much better than "last month" (please refer to my previous post - bajet korang kisah.. lalala~) the environment is better.. still in the learning progress, but... not bad.. less pressure...

convo - this saturday, i'm going to ukm bangi... ambil jubah, and settle all those stuff... honestly, i don't have the "excited" mood yet.. macam sedikit malas? :( remember zira!! this is once, in a lifetime!! but, think about the reunion with my coursemates, it's a pleasure... the convocation will be held on 9th august, feel free to stop by... =)

love story - me? not yet... dira? hell yeahhhhhhhhh!! she's engaged ok! congrats oi!! :D

family - biasa je.. tak ada apa nak di update sangat~ suria my niece, is very cute!! like auntie, like niece la kan... tengoklah makcu dia... HAHAHAHAHA~

future plan - planning to buy my very first car...................... dreaming, dreaming and keep dreaming. but still, haven't decide yet... hurm~
and of course, searching for him... please coming soon wokeyh! :D kidding... (kalau ya, apa salahnya? hahahaha ... semakin MUDA, semakin gatal.. yeay!)

that's all.. thanks for your time... =)

sEmiNgGu?

5 days working is ..........

exhausted? sikit, sebab dah lama tinggal zaman klinikal..

sakit kaki! teramat... kerusi? oh.. tak cukup..

pressure? yes... sebab trying to catch up the complex working system.. and trying to do the very best of everything which is definitely impossible in one week... and also, trying to avoid any kind of mistakes which i dah selamat buat dah, a few pulak tu. :p

overall... i really need masa, masa and masa to change my mentality... i am no longer a student.. i am now, a staff~ otak pun dah sedikit lembap untuk catch up semua benda baru yang dipelajari... thanx to tidur and tidur and tidur masa cuti.. tahniah~ :p

the hardest part is, confident.. i have no idea how long would it take to build my confident... kalau setiap kali buat benda pun kena tanya, serius macam student.. i think i know what to do.. it's just, macam i always need a double confirmation.. entah..

tiba2 rindu zaman student.. rasa less responsible sikit... i dislike commitment.. dari dulu, sampai sekarang... :(

aWaRd~

credit t0 zacko for the award... =) thanx zac!

soalan2nya...

Kenapa anda suke blogging?
sebab suka something fancy macam background colour2, boleh pilih ok! dan membebel dalam masa yang sama.. haha~

Adakah anda bahagia dengan kehidupan anda sekarang..?
Alhamdulillah.. so far so good! =)

Apakah impian anda 5 tahun akan datang?
ini soalan spot utk interview ni! jawapan skema boleh? haha..
'impian' yg sebetulnya ialah utk ada steady bf.. :p (trying to be honest here.. segan pula rasanya! hihiii)

Siapakah orang yang anda mahu sentiasa ada disisi anda..?

family and friends!
(zac, tertiru jawapan kau... macam tak ada jawapan lain je? takkan nak list out nama? eh, PERLU KE BAGI PENJELASAN KAT KAU! oh, zira dah serius!)

Sila beri award ini kepada 5 orang yang anda suka..

SKMS
Mai
Jun
Kak Chidah
Padil
(nak letak lagi nama lain boleh?)


Beri pendapat kamo tentang award ini..
stylo seyh! kalau dapat real, sumpah aku gilap kepala dia kasi licin selama2nya..

Me & ThaLaSseMia thingy~

ok, result medical check up sudah diketahui.. everything's fine except............
.
.
..

"can u come tomorrow morning? Doctor needs to review your result?"
"ok.. tomorrow should be okay for me.. but, the review is for....?"
"do you have any family members who suffered with THALASSEMIA?"
"ha...?"

ok! i know thalassemia is some kind of genetic disease, something to do with blood.. NOKTAH.itu saja dalam otak..

after the phone call, i rushed to surf the internet, read about thalassemia whatever... got the info, day goes by with nervousness.. for tomorrow's "review". duh! it's creepy!!!!

the next day...
"counseling" by the doctor..
for those suffered with thalassemia..............................

wait2!
"am i the carrier or..... i do have the disease??" (rakusnya saya bertanya!)
"if you ask for my opinion, i would say u are the carrier and yours is minor, which we called as alpha thalassemia because your blood count is normal... it is not serious.. you won't notice that you have it"
"okay...." lega!
"but!... (i hate the word 'but'!!) if u want to make sure, that you are the carrier alpha thalassemia, u can do further test... (ya, saya buat terus test itu!) and, u can also do chromosomal test, which can be done at IMR, KL or u'll go to Australia... in Malaysia, only IMR does the chromosomal test" (tak buat, mahal sungguh)

maka.... bermulalah kaunseling itu.... creepy huh~ thalassemia? who would know about that.. it's genetic, and my father had no idea how to pronounce the word pun. how on earth?! i already asked all my family members to do screening..

so guys... do the screening.. you might be ME, who had no idea at all! :( oh my future husband, please stay away from thalassemia!

it is not compulsory yet in Malaysia, but it is compulsory in any other countries before you've got married.. coz, the next generation will suffer if the gene meets...

uPdaTe

result dah selamat terkeluar...
Alhamdulillah~ lulus semua.. =) insyaAllah boleh convo!!! 4 tahun akan berbayar.. :p

tarikh convo sumpah tak tahu.. rasanya macam pernah dengar pasal 9 ogos? tapi ada kawan cakap, dalam website dia kate raptai 13hb? kejadah pulak raptai after convo? pertama kali akan diaplikasikan.. jadi, abaikan~

kerja? masih belum mula... baru lepas medical check up hari tu.. belum dapat result.. if okay, boleh la kerja... =) insyaAllah..

berat badan? oh, sudah tentu tidak makin langsing... HAHAHAHA~
tetapi, ada dalam list impian dan angan2 dah... diet untuk kuruskan badan... untuk convo.. TERBAIK tak impian saya??!! :D
rancangan diet? masih belum keputusan..
(kalau angan2 kata nak diet, tapi tiba-tiba makan 14 kali sehari, tak tahula apa hasilnya pulak kan?)

pakwe? tak ada lagi.. tapi dah selamat pow orang untuk bagi red rose untuk convo nanti.. hahaha~ kidding.. :p

lain2? tak ada dah... life goes on..

till we meet again.. insyaAllah =)

Lagenda Budak Setan

I did my previous post about local movies and dramas. i claimed that i don't have interest to watch them. apatah lagi watching them from the seat P18, cinema 9! YES! I DID... i went to the cinema to watch this! *clap3*

I read the novel of Lagenda Budak Setan. I admirer the ideas and style of writing of Ahadiat Akashah, the original writer even though i kinda hate all the endings of his writings! memang harapanlah nak dapat happy ending, except for Pilot Cafe, as i recall? correct me if i'm wrong.. he has a very creative ideas and unique style of writing.

ok, back to the movie! i like the idea of the story, to begin with. it's a years back, when i first read this novel. it's very thick! but his style is very sempoi, not a typical skema novels.. so, i don't mind. the movie is about 2 hours played. so, it's kinda rushing to finish up the very thick book story line, in 2 hours. But, still fine for me, as i HATE the slow story line movie.

surprisingly, it is not as bad as i thought it might be.. i think it's still worth it.. it's a sad movie. and it does affects the audiences.. some of them cried badly.. the characters are well played.. thumbs up to Lisa Surihani. her acting is much better compare to his movie, I'm Not Single..

overall, i don't mind to give this movie a 4 stars.. it is worth it.. that's all i can say.. :p

uPdaTe

"Too much of anything can make you sick
Even the good can be a curse
Makes it hard to know which road to go down
Knowing too much can get you hurt"

Lirik di atas adalah dari lagu Cheryl Cole - Fight for This Love.. Just a tiny part of the song.. very nice to read kan? The song is fine.. I like it though..

Anyway...
I want just want to make some life-update.. :p

I'm staying home doing nothing..
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Oh, tu je? ya.. tu je..
till we meet again..~ =)

h0pE u'LL 0peN ur eYes

i dislike those who really proud of what they're doing when it is totally wrong.. the example of "wrong" that i meant is: kau minum arak atau kau lesbian~ you uploaded all the pictures that you really proud of...

and then u claim dalam status facebook, sounds like this:

"i don't give a crap about what u guys said about me.. i know myself better than you are"

or, it could sounds like this:

"i don't care.. i know what i do.. kalau kau nak kecoh cakap pasal aku, macam lah kau baik sangat"

or:

"i know myself better than those who said a shit about me.. do i care?"

YES, YOU CARE! that's why u're telling us via your fb status! lepas tu mencarut2 dalam fb about those who said "a shit" about you... crap!

kau nak jadi jahat, that's your problem.. tapi bila kau kutuk orang yang cuba tolong nasihat kau, kau memang tak dapat difahami.. tak nak berubah sudah, janganlah kau kutuk kawan kau sendiri..

i'm totally not the kind of person who would give advise to my friend... because i think that they'll know the best, they matured enough to think.. they need time to change, to love Allah.. and i am not good, myself..

so, i admirer those who would be able to advise their friends.. nasihatkan kawan sendiri, jangan minum arak, jangan jadi pengkid.. or something like that... bukan senang nak jumpa kawan macam tu...
it's very sad to know bila orang yang dinasihati pergi kutuk si penasihat... mereka bukan penyibuk!.. i hate that kind of person! really do! :'( tanak kawan...

sEkaDar PenDapAt pEriBadi

post kali ini sangatlah panjang.. =)

baiklah.. bukan saya tak nak menyokong drama atau filem yang dihasilkan oleh karyawan tempatan... kebanyakan drama melayu yang saya pernah tahu adalah klise, menurut pendapat peribadi saya.. apa-apa pun, maafkan saya atas ayat yang mungkin tidak disenangi oleh mana-mana pihak..

idea tipikal drama melayu:

- semua drama nak libatkan cerita bisnes atau pun adegan dalam ofis. dengan pelakon sedang membelek fail, dan konon membaca atau perlu menandatangani apa-apa dokumen. ayah orang korporat.. ibu, mak datin.. ibu-ibu dikampung pula pakai kain batik dan anak tudung..

- gunting dalam lipatan: mesti ada...

- nak tidur pakai mekap.. rambut sangat kemas.

- baru lepas berkejaran dengan penjahat, tapi rambut macam baru lepas disisir rapi.. yang penting, nampak cantik.. adegan apa sekalipun, tak apa.. itulah tujuan lakonan..

- tiada keaslian dalam lakonan... nampak terlalu "berlakon"..

- kisah rebut harta dalam keluarga, kisah anak derhaka atau emak yang jahat akhirnya mendapat balasan terlalu kerap..atau pun kisah lelaki kacak menyukai perempuan kampung atau perempuan yang "kurang moden".. manakala perempuan moden, selalu tikam belakang.. idea tak berkembang..

- watak protagonis terutamanya perempuan TERLALU baik sampai di pijak-pijak kepalanya atau senang kata, dibuli.. watak antagonis pula TERLALU jahat tapi selalu terlepas dari hukuman..

- idea ikut musim.. kalau cerita seram, cerita seram sampai berpuluh-puluh nak keluar..

- baju mesti kena moden dan seksi... perempuan kampung atau watak baik pula mesti berbaju kurung..

saya bukan peminat cerita tempatan.. saya memang jarang tonton drama melayu.. tapi saya bukan pengkritik atau pun berlagak dan berbangga.. cuma minat masih tak datang... saya ingin menyokong industri seni malaysia.. ingin sungguh pergi ke panggung wayang semata-mata kerana ingin menonton filem melayu.. sungguh-sungguh! tapi masih belum ada yang membuatkan saya menonton dengan rela hati...

kononnya nak contohi filem barat.. tapi yang dicontohi cuma "cara pemakaian" dan "adegan kebaratan".. tak salah rasanya kalau kekalkan adat ketimuran dalam jalan cerita.. yang perlu dicontohi bukankah cara lakonan, idea cerita yang kreatif dan pelbagai, aksi dan teknologi yang canggih dan mantap? teringin rasanya nak tengok karya tempatan yang berunsurkan idea cerita seperti Charlie and The Chocolate Factory, Harry Potter, LOTR, iron man? mungkin akan tiba saat itu.. insyaAllah...

saya bukan berlagak pandai, tapi saya penat ditegur "ala, dia mana nak tengok cerita melayu" bila saya pilih cerita barat, cerita taiwan atau hong kong yang lebih dramatik, cerita jepun yang lebih berilmu dan pelbagai, cerita hindustan yang lebih emosi dan menyayat hati?

diingatkan.. ini adalah pandangan peribadi saya.. saya yakin, ramai di luar sana yang menggemari hasil karya tempatan... saya sekadar menyampaikan pendapat.. almaklumlah, duduk di rumah.. TV selalu di buka.. terdetik di hati nak tonton cerita tempatan, sayangnya.... 2 minit sudah cukup untuk menukar siaran..

sekali lagi, maafkan saya atas komen yang mungkin menyentuh mana-mana pihak dan kurang sopan.. maaf...

sPeciaL dEdiCatiOn~

4 years journey as a student of PDR 7th batch, officially end.. Allah knows how sad I am when I had to say goodbye to each one of them.. thousands liter of tears.... 4 years definitely not as short as I think it is...
"sekejapnya masa berlalu" is the common phrase we've said, but then.. when the day has come, all the memories flashing... it is surely a very long journey we had together..

i'm gonna miss Siti Aishah Saleh, Rahimah Rahman, Milani Kamis, Nur Syahirah Shariff, Khairunnaja Mohd Zakaria dan Syahida Nafisyah Abd Hadi the most... I'll never forget our memories especially all the days in our final semester.. also to all PDR 7th batch members, our trip to cameron and pangkor, genting, i city, sentul park, hot spring, sg klah sungkai,broga hills, mcd titiwangsa, look out point and all the other places we went to enjoy our remaining days together will always be in my heart...

jiwang and skema, but sincerely from my heart...

to thilip, zack, wan, arep, ro, naz, lami n mon.. thanx sebab sangat supportive bila kitorang ajak keluar pergi mana2.. melepak, makan2m karok... even though iron man is not the best movie to be enjoyed together, broga hills still memorable kan... =) (w'pon bergaduh juga b4 nak pergi tu!)

special dedication to cendana team as well, u guys had taught me how to be the strongest pemantun and give me a very enjoying days ever... i will remember each of you for sure...

padil n ted, u guys are not my coursemate, not a member of my whatever team, but still... the time we spent and hang out, was precious... u might think it's nothing, but for me, it's something.. i don't have any other friends other than my coursemates who would lepak with me at kfc and kedai makan siam ntah hape ntah namenye.. and also, going to times for twilight.. :p

please stay in touch... forget me not... coz i'll always remember each of you...

m0viEs, bAck t0 bAck

i'll start with The Losers..



after a few months i'm away from cinema, this is definitely a great "start-over".. :p

it's hilarious! with all the macho-cool-cute heroes.. OMG, i'm melting...
the idea of the story is creative... they were supposed to be dead, but they come back for some kind of revenge.. it's not that cliche as it's seem.. it's funny, the effects and action are great.. and most important is, it's enjoyable.. u still can talk about it after the movie... i'm giving 5 stars for this movie.. =)


Next, is Iron man 2..



I'm very disappointed.. i'm waiting for this movie like "OMG, it's iron man!! i wanna watch it no matter what!!" duh, very excited..

but sadly, it turns out to be a very dull, slow moving movie.. too many talking, less action.. the way they end the movie by killing the bad guy that i've already forgot the name, padahal i'm watching this movie like 2 days ago? is boring.. enough said.
Ok dude, angkat tangan sama2 and then, BOOM.. mati? SEKEJAPNYA??? again, more talking, less action..

the role of gwyneth is too minor... she become a CEO, and finally she kissed with robert.. erk? itu sahaja yang penting... as i recall la..

the best thing in this movie, is Robert.. the handsome, macho old-hero... and that's it... i'm giving 3 stars... sorry robert.. :p

it's ME~

PEOPLE!!

please know me well..
don't judge me by the way i speak coz u won't see my soft spot..
don't judge me by the way i dress coz i'm conventional when it comes to that..
don't judge me by the way i act coz i'm a bad actress...
and please, judge me by the way i eat or drive.. coz "they" said "wah, zira lembut masa makan and drive" YES!! i like the last part~ =)

so.. please.. know me well ok! before u start judging... coz i am very sensitive when you said something about me, which i am actually not like what u're claiming.. thank you for your time...

i've bEEn taGGed

ok.. saya udah di tagged by castalica azryiana.. sila lihat blog beliaw =)

jadi, inilah gamba saya dari folder ke 8, gambar ke 8..



gamba: dari kiri - nameless, kak as, zeha.
ceriteranya... (i speaky lagi u.. ouch! :D)

time ni pertandingan "Debat Gema Kemerdekaan"..
tapi we're not the debaters! kak as exco protokol, while nameless and zeha ajk protokol..
kami usher masa tu...

seronok ok, pertandingan ni.. time ni la berkenalan dengan Malek and Daus debaters from KDO, who turns out to be a pemantun... we'll meet each other again during pantun at bangi.. kenal sampai la final year ni sebab every year during pertandingan pantun, kami berjumpa.. kecik je dunia ni kan? =)

so... tu la serba sedikit ceritera gamba ini...

dRamA quEEn~

this girl, fell in love with this guy.. but it turns out to be that the guy fall in love with the other girl..

drama lines:

"i'm happy as long as you are happy... even if it's not with me"

duh! crap...

we won't feel happy.. happy for them? maybe... i don't know, don't bother about them because he's not belong to us.. they're happy, good.. they're not? whatever...

smile, while saying those drama lines is a NO NO NO. kononnya nak prove that we are strong and have some pride... ok, we do have pride..

BUT, why don't we just cry in front of him? let it out, let him know how we feel.. we are weak after all when it comes to this matter.. what is wrong about letting him know? just, don't begging for his love.. that's what i call a "pride"..

but then, we get back home, we stop crying, we tell family and friends about this.. we sleep, we eat, we do house cores, we watch movies and dramas, we getting stronger and feel better in time.. even if it takes 2,3 years.. 10 years perhaps? we move on~~

it is definitely not going to be easy, confirm! i'm not acting strong because i know that i'm not strong at all... but this is not a drama.. don't let the drama lines get on you.. :p cari lain sudah... :D

i've been frustrating about this one guy lately... i hate to think that he's finally couple with his so-called "best friend".. i hate it because i am not happy cause he's not mine.. so.. i'm trying this formula... so far so good.. i'm deleting him, step by step.. =)

let's try it.. at home.. :D

i'm tRyiNg n0t t0 caLL it a hYpocRisy~

there's a time when i'm stuck in between.. either to be "myself", or trying to do something so-not-you just to please others..

during my clinical posting, being a nice, quite girl was kinda always! i have no idea why am i like that, it just... happened.. orang tanya sepatah, setengah patah je jawab... orang ajak borak, senyum tak sudah.. :p

but, i can see that a few of my friends can be themselves, i mean really2 themselves among numbers of people they just met... i think it's great, show some respect here.. =)
but still, i'm not saying that my act is a type of hypocrisy.. if it is so, what's wrong on being a hypocrite in a time like that? kan kan kan??? :p

ok fine, i have no point in writing this post...
i'm just thinking that.... we cannot be ourselves at all time... maybe not "we" but "me" instead... because i have no idea about you guys.... =)

LittLe GirL hAs c0mE

yeay~ saya ialah makcu kepada seorang budak kicik ini...
hello dear... welcome to the family...
serius kamu comel okay!! =)

nak tahu nama dia?

SURIA ADRIANA BT SAIFUL ANWAR~

upDatE~

by this 16th, need to submit the soft cover of my so-called-thesis..
kinda struggling but still trying to enjoy the remaining time with my friends...

by 20th this month also, got theoretical exam paper...

by 3rd n 4th may, we've got presentation and VIVA.. creepy but still need to go through...

next... you'll know about it later..
no need to mention on how we're going to end this..
4 years, trust me.. it is not that short... the friendship build up is totally amazing... really gonna miss every single person who appeared in my life for this 4 years period...

korang... let's go through this, together~ until the end of this journey! enjoy the remaining... =)

You Got Me

You Got Me
by Colbie Caillat

I like this song.. dedicated to whom i like~ =)
the lyrics is so sweet and the rhythm is relaxing and easy to catch up...
here, i give you the lyrics to layannnn~
lagu, cari sendiri.. :p

You're stuck on me and my laughing eyes
I can't pretend though I try to hide - I like you
I like you.

I think I felt my heart skip a beat
I'm standing here and I can hardly breathe - you got me
You got me.

The way you take my hand is just so sweet
And that crooked smile of yours it knocks me off my feet

Oh, I just can't get enough
I'm a stoup I need to fill me up.
It feels so good it must be love
It's everything that I've been dreaming of.
I give up. I give in. I let go. Lets begin.
Cuz no matter what I do,
Oh (oh) my heart is filled with you.

I can't imagine what it'd be like
Livin everyday in this life - without you.
Without you.
One look from you I know you understand
This mess we're in you know is just so out of hand.

Oh, I just can't get enough
I'm a stoup I need to fill me up.
It feels so good it must be love
It's everything that I've been dreaming of.
I give up. I give in. I let go. Lets begin.
Cuz no matter what I do,

Oh, I just can't get enough
I'm a stoup I need to fill me up.
It feels so good it must be love
It's everything that I've been dreaming of.
I give up. I give in. I let go. Lets begin.
Cuz no matter what I do,
Oh (oh) my heart is filled with you.

Oh (oh)
You got me. You got me.
Oh (oh)
You got me. You got me.

saja2.. =)

w0ndering....
who will see the soft spot inside me?

i know who i am, and i hope u'll know me as well as i do...
=)

tAggEd~

1. adakah anda rasa HOT??

kipas saye berfungsi dgn cemerlangnya.. so, tidak la hot mana.. =)

2. upload wallpaper pc/laptop yang anda guna sekarang!













3. cerita pasal gambar...
gambar ini, junaidah hassan yang bagi... :D

4. bila kali terakhir anda makan pizza?
oh! sudah agak lama sampai tak dapat refresh!

5. lagu terakhir anda dengar?
Fifteen by Taylor Swift

6. apa yang anda buat selain menyelesaikan tag ini?
facebooking~ i love wasting my time...

7. selain nama sendiri, anda dipanggil nama apa?
jighah, zira, hazirah, adik, goggle..

8. tag lagi 8 orang

• kak chidah
• nadiah
• shahridzuan
• fadzil
• ted
• zack
• ro
• wan
  

9. siapakah orang no.1 kepada anda
senior cendana! n fren of coz... :D

10. katakan sesuatu mengenai orang no. 5...
namanya daus tapi lebih famous dgn nama ted~ :D

11. no 3 ada hubungan ngan siapa?
oh, dia belum berpunya~ hahahaha...

12. bagaimana pula ngan no.4?
boleh aku sebut kat sini ke??? :P
dia dah tahu nama aweknya sendiri, tak perlu diberitahu... :D

13. pesanan kepada orang no.6
apa cerita kita tak pergi bercuti ramai2 ni? bosan kot.... :p

14. kata2 cinta untuk orang no.2
kalau kurang cinta boleh? :p
oi, jom lepak... rindu gak kat korang ni...

15. adakah no.7 dan no.8 mempunyai persamaan?
budak pdr, pakai spec, lelaki, melayu... =)

16. berikan 5 yang anda tau orang yng mentag anda..

• tinggi!
• suka main volley
• becoming pharmacist
• ex kisas
• happening! =)
  

17. persamaan antara kambing dan lembu..
comel...

18. perasaan anda wat tag ni..
sakit perut~

19. adakah anda tahu si razman itu sengal?
tahu sikit2 je... (sumpah tak kenal sape tu)

20. GAY/LESS
kesian~ =(