mAri LangGar2?

bila kerja, hari2 atas jalan raya, di dalam kereta... sudah lah kereta sebelah, depan, belakang memang banyak... bila tertekan, terjumpa pulak pemandu2 yang macam ^&^$&*@$#!*@^
sungguh layak dilanggar..
mari saya beri contoh yang cam best.. boleh? (best pada saya, tidak semestinya best pada kamu juga kan... lalala~)

• bila jalan jam, dia potong dengan selamba... bila tak jam pun dia potong dengan selamba badak... "kau dah kenapa?" (dalam hati) rasa nak langgar tak? jom langgar sama2!
• bawa 80km/j di lorong paling kanan... lagi2 time kau dah lambat, kereta tu elok2 depan kau... 2 minit tak apa lagi... kalau 20 minit pun sama jugak, tak paham2. jom langgar kereta dia!
• bila hujan lebat semacam, dia tak buka lampu da... hello bhai, saya tak nampak kereta kamu nanti.. memang minta kena langgar mungkin?
• saya terpaksa lalu roundabout... saya sedih bila kereta depan saya takut2 nak masuk... saya terpaksa tunggu dengan sabar... tapi............................ bila saya terlambat pergi kerja, saya macam nak tolong tolakkan kereta dia supaya dia jadi lebih berani!
• saya nak menghala ke barat... tapi hala ke timur jam sangat.. saya nak keluar lorong, tapi ada pemandu sedikit sengal boleh stop di petak kuning... bhai, mana boleh stop kat petak kuning.. ambil lesen basikal betul.. kalau tidak, saya dah boleh lalu... saya rasa nak pancitkan tayar kereta dia...... :(
• bila orang tak nak beri belas kasihan bila saya nak tukar lorong... saya dah bagi signal, dah angkat tangan.. (sopan kan saya... lalala~) tapi dia tak bagi... lepas tu pecut laju2 padahal dia jauh lagi sebenarnya... lagi2 kalau perempuan buat macam tu.. konon hebat lah agaknya? oh, memang mintak pelanggar..
  

entah kenapa, banyak sangat yang saya tak puas hati dengan pemandu2 jalan raya... ini baru 4 bulan ulang alik pergi kerja, jalan jam... macam manalah kalau 4 tahun? nak jadi polis trafik boleh?

p0sT em0!

aku bukan minta balasan atas apa yang aku buat...

tapi kalau kau dapat tunjuk sedikit penghargaan, aku akan gembira tak ingat..

tapi, jangan katakan penghargaan, alih2 penghinaan yang aku dapat...

orang kata, tak kisahlah apa yang kau nak buat..

asalkan, aku buat cara aku... akhirnya, Tuhan tunjuk juga..

bukan aku maksudkan aku ni baik sangat, kau pulak sebaliknya...

tidak sama sekali..

tapi, aku dah penat dengan apa yang kau dah buat..

bukan sekali dua..

tapi sampai tak terkira...

tak payah la nak terasa...

post ini bukan untuk kau..

tapi untuk sentiasa ingatkan aku...

supaya sentiasa berfikiran bijak dan waras dalam apa2 yang ada kena mengena dengan kau..

apa2 pun, aku sangat2 terhina dan terkilan sangat sekarang ni kerana kau

NOKTAH

sAyA suKa rAyA!

OK, blog I memang lapuk gila, taknak kawan dengan blog dah.. berdebu2! previous post pasal "pre-raya" .. duh? sekarang dah raya ke berapa? shame on you nameless!! (mukadimah kena menggedik, baru happy nak menulis... :p)

so... di hari raya yg keberapa entah ni **sumpah malas nak kira** saya ingin mengucapkan...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA
MAAF ZAHIR BATIN..

(walaupun raya dah nak basi, tapi kita still raya ok.. terimalah ucapan penuh keikhlasan aku itu........... )

di kesempatan ni, saya nak minta maaf kepada sesiapa yang pernah disakiti, diumpati, dikasari, di apa2kan la sepanjang perkenalan kita.. saya manusia biasa, banyak buat silap.. maafkan saya ok! =)

pRe rAyA.

wohooo.. sudah mahu raya la bhai~
mengapakah mood sedikit kurang.. adakah kerana umur semakin meningkat? omoe!
gaji bulan ini kena spend sikit untuk duit raya... **first time**
duit raya I bagi ada limit umur ok~ untuk BUDAK2 berumur kurang 10 tahun saja *gabak sikit kasi terang*.. itu pun atas budi bicara.. kau buat jahat dengan aku, menangis2.. kirim salam~ hahaha...

marilah mencari mood raya walaupun lagu raya kat radio banyak baru2.. tak sentimental la.. :(
ada masa lagi... di samping mencari malam lailatul qadar, insyaAllah... =)

l0w sElf eSteEm

oh, today is not my day..
it's always been better, day by day.. i start to like it, enjoying the days...
but now... first time menangis sebab kerja..
it's not about stress, it's definitely nothing to do with them..
i've been holding this feeling for quite some times.. i thought it's nothing... it's only the beginning of the carrier... bla3...
but now, i cry... benci perasaan macam ni..
sampai bila nak macam ni? i have no idea...
been compared, been judged in such a way... no improvement seen... everything is always bad about me.. nothing good~ dia ni bagus.. yang dia tu pula excellent... yang lagi sorang always confident, very good...
damn~ it's only me... never been better? don't have any chance for improvement? i don't know whether i'm looking for appreciation.. i don't even deserve it, how can i ask for it?
i have no idea... sangat tidak selesa dengan perasaan low self esteem macam ni~

eDiSi rAmaDhaN~

Alhamdulillah... ramadhan bertandang lagi.... bersyukur sangat sebab umur masih pajang untuk bertemu ramadhan... terima kasih Ya Allah... =)

edisi ramadhan kali ini.. sedikit sopan kan saya? yeay! :D
pertama kali sambut ramadhan dengan status diri "bekerja"
awal dulu risau jugak sebab konon mengada2, takut tak larat.. dusta belaka semua tu..
bila kerja, walaupun penat tapi tak terasa langsung.. rasa macam biasa je sebab yerla.. masa cepat berlalu... sibuk, ramai patients.. sedar2 dah balik.. berbuka... Alhamdulillah~

raya... baju raya tak beli lagi!!!
gaji, silalah keluar.. barulah saya pergi shopping.. :p

eh, post ni macam kekurangan motif la... dah tak tahu nak tulis apa da.. hahaha~

hepy ramadhan semua... =)

k0mitmEn~

setelah bergelar graduan (tak habis lagi version perkataan kegemaran ni rupanya), barulah terasa komitmen yang totally berbeza...
buat masa ni, memang tak ada angan2, impian, harapan, keinginan langusng untuk sambung belajar.. seriously! dulu memang ada... ingat nak sambung master lepas dah kerja, cari pengalaman..
sekarang rasa macam......... tak apalah.. sementara ada kerja tetap ni, teruskan la.. apa yang jadi lepas ni, we have no idea at all kan? tapi sekarang, my heart is in Sunmed~ =) (ayat kena gedik, baru mencapai misi.. apa entah misinya? lalala~)

so.. berakhirnya journey di UKM, saya kini di Sunmed.. komitmen kerja sangat2 berbeza dengan belajar.. langsung tak sama... tanggungjawab macam berat.. maybe orang kata "ala, budak baru kerja memang macam tu..." tapi, tak tahu la... penat ada, sedih ada, risau tak payah cakap la... plus, competition among colleagues sendiri, tiring than competing your own self... happy memang happy.. enjoy memang enjoy... but sampingannya? :p
oh post saya semakin serius... lalala~

temankan saya berusaha ok? insyaAllah, everything's gonna be fine... hopefully~ =)
(baru kerja, belum komitmen kahwin lagi! hahahahaha~ sepak la aku sekarang!)

bila post serius, saya tak main font colour2. tapi macam boring.. so, saya sengaja tambah2 di bawah ini untuk letak colour... lalalala~

sAyA kini bErgELar GraDuaN! =)

09082010
keramat kot! saya konvo... yeay~ *clap2*

4 tahun study.. rasa macam lama kan? tapi cepat sangat masa berlalu... kenangan banyak yang teramat~

i was happy with my convo.. first time i tried wearing different style of tudung.. chubby! searching for new baju kurung, one day b4 the convo.. hanging out with my family on the 8th and 9th.. it was, one of the most happiest day in my life..

but then, when u think back.. your life as a student, u kinda miss it... =)
working is great as well, but never be the same as student, definitely! school was totally different.. matriculation and university were on the different page of the book...
times wait for no men... including me~ now i'm 23!

so.. with the end of these, i'm now...
GRADUAN! hahaha... dunno why, i kinda like the word "graduan" (ada korang kisah??!! :P)

p/s: sangat sedih sebab tak dapat bergambar dengan kawan2 seangkatan lepas keluar dewan... rushing, and searching~ huuu...

0ne dAy sTorY~

hari ini hari ahad, esok isnin... mari bekerja~

semalam sabtu, pergi bangi ambik jubah.... colour pink u, ouch!
i'm in pink on 09/08/2010... feel free to come.. =)

bila cakap pasal ambik jubah, otak terus automatik fikir "mesti ramai tak hengat! nak kena berebut saiz lagi.. nanti dapat jubah besar2 (padahal tk sedar yang badan sendiri memang bukan saiz kecil kan) lalala...

bila dah sampai sana, terkejut sikit... sikit je tau! parking boleh dapat betul2 depan dectar.. yang hanya perlu jalan 2 minit untuk ke kaunter mungkin? (sebenarnye nak cakap yang tak ramai orang kat situ... metaforanya, parking depan dectar.. kalau ramai, sahih tak ada parking dekat) baru ingat nak jadi macam House MD... pakai metafora jee... cis! tak jadi... lalalala~

lepas tu, pergi alamanda... plan sangat banyak ok... lepas makan dengan seronok, borak kuat2, gelak terkeluar nasi, kami2 yang dah lama tak jumpa ni pun berbincang.. apa plan? nak lepak sampai midnight ni...
ok, pergi cinema... tengok tiket, tak ada yang sesuai dan berkenan..
next, bowling.. ramai, tak percaya.. 20 orang in the waiting list... jadi, sekian terima kasih... kirim salam je la kat abang jaga kaunter...

seterusnya... pergi mana? budak2 PDR... dah macam trademark pun ada... kami pergi karaoke laa pulaaa... aish~ memang tak boleh lari... ;p

PDRians, cendanas... serius rindu kamu semua... :(

p/s: penyakit takut kucing saya semakin serius! selama ni memang terasa "kucing, go away from me!" tapi semalam terasa macam "kucing, please don't come any nearer" (sila ingat nada percakapan saya macam mana.. i love using dialogues to describe my emotions)... perlu segera ubati... sebab dah rasa benci dengan diri sendiri macam gedik... need to love kucing soon!

uPdAte~

walllaaaweh... blog berhabuk, stylo! =)

sebulan tak update blog, konon macam sibuk tak ingat kan? padahal every single night, my facebook and ym is on...

anyway! update...

working - is sooooo much better than "last month" (please refer to my previous post - bajet korang kisah.. lalala~) the environment is better.. still in the learning progress, but... not bad.. less pressure...

convo - this saturday, i'm going to ukm bangi... ambil jubah, and settle all those stuff... honestly, i don't have the "excited" mood yet.. macam sedikit malas? :( remember zira!! this is once, in a lifetime!! but, think about the reunion with my coursemates, it's a pleasure... the convocation will be held on 9th august, feel free to stop by... =)

love story - me? not yet... dira? hell yeahhhhhhhhh!! she's engaged ok! congrats oi!! :D

family - biasa je.. tak ada apa nak di update sangat~ suria my niece, is very cute!! like auntie, like niece la kan... tengoklah makcu dia... HAHAHAHAHA~

future plan - planning to buy my very first car...................... dreaming, dreaming and keep dreaming. but still, haven't decide yet... hurm~
and of course, searching for him... please coming soon wokeyh! :D kidding... (kalau ya, apa salahnya? hahahaha ... semakin MUDA, semakin gatal.. yeay!)

that's all.. thanks for your time... =)

sEmiNgGu?

5 days working is ..........

exhausted? sikit, sebab dah lama tinggal zaman klinikal..

sakit kaki! teramat... kerusi? oh.. tak cukup..

pressure? yes... sebab trying to catch up the complex working system.. and trying to do the very best of everything which is definitely impossible in one week... and also, trying to avoid any kind of mistakes which i dah selamat buat dah, a few pulak tu. :p

overall... i really need masa, masa and masa to change my mentality... i am no longer a student.. i am now, a staff~ otak pun dah sedikit lembap untuk catch up semua benda baru yang dipelajari... thanx to tidur and tidur and tidur masa cuti.. tahniah~ :p

the hardest part is, confident.. i have no idea how long would it take to build my confident... kalau setiap kali buat benda pun kena tanya, serius macam student.. i think i know what to do.. it's just, macam i always need a double confirmation.. entah..

tiba2 rindu zaman student.. rasa less responsible sikit... i dislike commitment.. dari dulu, sampai sekarang... :(

aWaRd~

credit t0 zacko for the award... =) thanx zac!

soalan2nya...

Kenapa anda suke blogging?
sebab suka something fancy macam background colour2, boleh pilih ok! dan membebel dalam masa yang sama.. haha~

Adakah anda bahagia dengan kehidupan anda sekarang..?
Alhamdulillah.. so far so good! =)

Apakah impian anda 5 tahun akan datang?
ini soalan spot utk interview ni! jawapan skema boleh? haha..
'impian' yg sebetulnya ialah utk ada steady bf.. :p (trying to be honest here.. segan pula rasanya! hihiii)

Siapakah orang yang anda mahu sentiasa ada disisi anda..?

family and friends!
(zac, tertiru jawapan kau... macam tak ada jawapan lain je? takkan nak list out nama? eh, PERLU KE BAGI PENJELASAN KAT KAU! oh, zira dah serius!)

Sila beri award ini kepada 5 orang yang anda suka..

SKMS
Mai
Jun
Kak Chidah
Padil
(nak letak lagi nama lain boleh?)


Beri pendapat kamo tentang award ini..
stylo seyh! kalau dapat real, sumpah aku gilap kepala dia kasi licin selama2nya..

Me & ThaLaSseMia thingy~

ok, result medical check up sudah diketahui.. everything's fine except............
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.
..

"can u come tomorrow morning? Doctor needs to review your result?"
"ok.. tomorrow should be okay for me.. but, the review is for....?"
"do you have any family members who suffered with THALASSEMIA?"
"ha...?"

ok! i know thalassemia is some kind of genetic disease, something to do with blood.. NOKTAH.itu saja dalam otak..

after the phone call, i rushed to surf the internet, read about thalassemia whatever... got the info, day goes by with nervousness.. for tomorrow's "review". duh! it's creepy!!!!

the next day...
"counseling" by the doctor..
for those suffered with thalassemia..............................

wait2!
"am i the carrier or..... i do have the disease??" (rakusnya saya bertanya!)
"if you ask for my opinion, i would say u are the carrier and yours is minor, which we called as alpha thalassemia because your blood count is normal... it is not serious.. you won't notice that you have it"
"okay...." lega!
"but!... (i hate the word 'but'!!) if u want to make sure, that you are the carrier alpha thalassemia, u can do further test... (ya, saya buat terus test itu!) and, u can also do chromosomal test, which can be done at IMR, KL or u'll go to Australia... in Malaysia, only IMR does the chromosomal test" (tak buat, mahal sungguh)

maka.... bermulalah kaunseling itu.... creepy huh~ thalassemia? who would know about that.. it's genetic, and my father had no idea how to pronounce the word pun. how on earth?! i already asked all my family members to do screening..

so guys... do the screening.. you might be ME, who had no idea at all! :( oh my future husband, please stay away from thalassemia!

it is not compulsory yet in Malaysia, but it is compulsory in any other countries before you've got married.. coz, the next generation will suffer if the gene meets...

uPdaTe

result dah selamat terkeluar...
Alhamdulillah~ lulus semua.. =) insyaAllah boleh convo!!! 4 tahun akan berbayar.. :p

tarikh convo sumpah tak tahu.. rasanya macam pernah dengar pasal 9 ogos? tapi ada kawan cakap, dalam website dia kate raptai 13hb? kejadah pulak raptai after convo? pertama kali akan diaplikasikan.. jadi, abaikan~

kerja? masih belum mula... baru lepas medical check up hari tu.. belum dapat result.. if okay, boleh la kerja... =) insyaAllah..

berat badan? oh, sudah tentu tidak makin langsing... HAHAHAHA~
tetapi, ada dalam list impian dan angan2 dah... diet untuk kuruskan badan... untuk convo.. TERBAIK tak impian saya??!! :D
rancangan diet? masih belum keputusan..
(kalau angan2 kata nak diet, tapi tiba-tiba makan 14 kali sehari, tak tahula apa hasilnya pulak kan?)

pakwe? tak ada lagi.. tapi dah selamat pow orang untuk bagi red rose untuk convo nanti.. hahaha~ kidding.. :p

lain2? tak ada dah... life goes on..

till we meet again.. insyaAllah =)

Lagenda Budak Setan

I did my previous post about local movies and dramas. i claimed that i don't have interest to watch them. apatah lagi watching them from the seat P18, cinema 9! YES! I DID... i went to the cinema to watch this! *clap3*

I read the novel of Lagenda Budak Setan. I admirer the ideas and style of writing of Ahadiat Akashah, the original writer even though i kinda hate all the endings of his writings! memang harapanlah nak dapat happy ending, except for Pilot Cafe, as i recall? correct me if i'm wrong.. he has a very creative ideas and unique style of writing.

ok, back to the movie! i like the idea of the story, to begin with. it's a years back, when i first read this novel. it's very thick! but his style is very sempoi, not a typical skema novels.. so, i don't mind. the movie is about 2 hours played. so, it's kinda rushing to finish up the very thick book story line, in 2 hours. But, still fine for me, as i HATE the slow story line movie.

surprisingly, it is not as bad as i thought it might be.. i think it's still worth it.. it's a sad movie. and it does affects the audiences.. some of them cried badly.. the characters are well played.. thumbs up to Lisa Surihani. her acting is much better compare to his movie, I'm Not Single..

overall, i don't mind to give this movie a 4 stars.. it is worth it.. that's all i can say.. :p