Impian

Luahan rasa versi tak colorful dan santai. Ala diari. *perlu ke bagitau*

Aku tak ada cita2, tapi aku ada impian. *geli sikit mukadimah*

Dari dulu lagi memang perasan dan berangan tinggi gila nak jadi lecturer. Bukan sebab the excitement of teaching ke, the socialization with the students.. Nope.

Tapi dulu time naif fikir, sambung belajar untuk jadi lecturer.

My point is, saya nak sambung belajar. Sekarang fikir, tak semestinya jadi lecturer. Dang! *faham tak*

Kiranyaaaaaa... impian aku sebenarnya ialah nak sambung belajar. Kah3.

kejap. sabar. Jangan menuduh aku tak tentu pasal. *padahal korang tak kata apa pun*

Ada terms and condition untuk sambung belajar.

Kenapa aku nak sangat sambung belajar sebenanrnya? * sambungan*

Sebab, aku nak sambung kat luar negara. Aku nak hidup kat luar negara. Teringin nak build self independence yang kuat. Boleh tak? 

Aku nak sambung Master je. Cukuplah. Tak payah lama. Kalau bosan kerja kat hospital *atau dah tak ada siapa nak ambik bekerja*, aku jadi lecturer. Lepas berjaya bergelar lecturer, baru second thought untuk PhD.

Masalah *atau alasan* besar yang aku alami sekarang ialah, takut. Serius. Takut nak memulakan langkah baru. Takut menyesal sebab kerja seakarang dah selesa *walaupun stress nak mati, rasa tak ada life*.

Masalah kontra pula, aku dah triple stress dengan kerja sekarang walaupun dah 2 tahun 4 bulan kerja. Stress dengan management yang particular melampau, stress sebab kena kerja dengan arrogance doctors yang layan kita macam slave, stress dengan kebosanan dan workload yang besar. 

Aku nak sangat bina hidup baru, improve diri sendiri especially dalaman yang tak berapa nak strong. Aku nak sangat something new and fun. Tapi, aku takut. :'(

Gua Tempurung

**berapa bulan tak blogging. Konon macam busy, workholic, kerja keras tak kira masa. Padahal facebooking sampai nak muntah, youtubing sampai youtube muak tengok I. Isk. Kesian blog. Maafkan tuanmu ini.**

Tadi pergi Gua Tempurung kelapa. As you all know *kalau know la*, Cik Nur Hazirah yang gila kasar ni, bukan jenis adventurous. Langsung. Roller coaster, snorkeling, jet ski, panjat bukit? Apa benda itu? It's a no no. Always no. Semua pernah try sekali tanpa keihklasan hati yang maksimum. And of course, the first try will remains as the ONLY trial.

Mula2 masa di ajak pergi join jalan2 Gua Tempurung *nak sedap sikit tukar ayat, Ekspedisi Gua Tempurung* memang tak ada perasaan. Senyum je sebab ingatkan masuk gua jerit2 bagi bergema, lepas tu keluar. Yakin diri kan? Tiba2 ada seorang kawan ni, pergi tunjuk video dari youtube, ada geng pengembaraan ni upload video masa diorang pergi masuk gua kegembiraan yang akan kami pergi ni. Terus semput pernafasan I ok. 

Di sebabkan dah bagi nama dengan yakin asalnya, pasrahkan diri, kuatkan semangat taik ayam pergilah saya ke Gua Tempurung kelapa. Tengok gua dari luar dah nervous. Ya, saya memang sangatlah tidak adventurous. Seriously!

Tau tak dalam gua tu kena slide la, 9m batu marmar yang licin, cedera punggung I *hyperbola*. Crawling adalah dalam 7,8 kali kot? Kaki bengkak dengan yakin *nampak sangat cara salah*, kepala terhantuk 3 kali *malas nak berlagak* sampai boleh rasa benjolannya sekarang. Paling seram kena panjat2. Licin ok! Lepas tu ada lubang kecil pulak nak kena pass through. Isk, I triple psiko ok.

But then, at the end of the journey, you'll be able to sit around the river, playing around with the cold flowing water... Keluar gua rasa bersyukur dengan keindahan ciptaan Allah SWT. Matahari itu satu anugerah hebat! *masuk gua 3 jam, nervous lebih sebab gelap*. It's the good experience though, even it'll definitely the first and last for me.. wakaka...

pictures will be uploaded late *kalau adalah. orang lain tukang ambik kan*.

Sekian, itu je. Good Bye! :D

Puasa!

lamanyaaaaaaaaaa tak jumpa! :D Hi Blog, apa khabar? saya bersihkan sawang ok? maafkan saya... :(


Alhamdulillah... Allah bagi peluang bertemu Ramadhan lagi sekali.. :)
Tahun ni terasa mencabar sikit sebab kerja. Pergi balik kerja yang memang sesak, bertambah sesak. Entah kenapa. Nak langgar kereta depan tak cukup duit pulak nak bayar kan. So, brek la memanjang. Pahala puasa yang sikit bertambah sikit sebab marah2 manusia lain. 


Semalam, on call. Sedih sampai tertitis air mata. Setitis je la, lepas tu tiba2 cekal. Bila ada orang bagi semangat, mata berair lagi. What a fragile heart I have kan. :p


Ceriteranya begini. Masa oncall memang dah bajet timing. Pukul 6.30 @ 7 dah boleh pergi beli makanan. Berbuka, sambung kes pukul 8. Mana nak tahu, busy tak ingat sampai pukul 7.30 tak stop kes. Alih2 pergi kedai serbaneka beli air dan roti. Ada juga rezeki. 


Sambung kerja. Sampai pukul 9 baru siap. Lepas solat Isyak, dengan keyakinan tinggi nak cari makanan. Tiba2 ada kes lagi. Long kes pulak tu. Dalam 3 jam la jugak kes tu.  Nak menangis hanya Allah yang tahu..  Sedih gile! Stress tak memasal. Lapar dah hilang, stress double up. Mandi belum, apa tidak. Terus rasa nak berhenti kerja. Tiba2 kan? Oh, I memang begitu. 


Long kes siap pukul 1200 tgh malam. Kawan ajak pergi mamak. Selera dah mati tapi mengenangkan esok nak kerja lagi, gagahkan diri beli makanan. Dah bungkus bawak balik, mandi dulu. Lantakla, tgh malam ke. Serabut! Lepas mandi, makan. Pukul 1 pagi. Berbuka plus sahur, 2 in 1. 


Fikir positif. Buat banyak kes, dapat income lebih. Allah bagi rezeki tu. Memanglah stress nak mati, sampai berair2 mata, tapi itu jalan Allah bagi rezeki kan. Orang lain entah2 tak tidur langsung. Makan roti dgn air kosong je agaknya, siapa tahu? :)


Tak tahulah lepas ni macam mana pula.  


Oh ya.. Salam Ramadhan kawan2.. :)

m0vie marath0n

it's an outing with sisters and cousins.. we used to hang out like this before.. always.. but nowadays, i'm not into it anymore. I have no idea why basically. but today, IT WAS AN AWESOME OUTING... =)
we watched 2 movies in one day... Here's my review.. 


Snow White and The Huntsman

Picture credit to Mr Google

Well, we know the fairy tale of Snow White. Who is Snow White, the king and the kingdom, the stepmother, mirror mirror on the wall, the dwarfs, the prince (in this case is the huntsman)... So, this movie follow the same idea but adventurous side of Snow White though. 

I like the story telling, the flow of the movie is very smooth.. The characters are well played by them all. And this part of Snow White is so much better than the movie "Mirror Mirror". It's cliche, predictable but still it's worth watching. It's like the adventurous journey of Snow White to get her revenge of her father. Something like that. 

As a conclusion, I would say that this movie is a standard adventurous type of movie, nothing extraordinary but the plot and characters are good. I'll give 4 stars.

Second of all, we watched Madagascar 3: Europe's Most Wanted.

Picture credit to Mr Google

This movie is sooooooooooo hilarious!! From the beginning till the end of it, I cannot stop myself from laughing. Even when it's not funny at all, I'll smile all the way. There's a certain serious scenes but it do not affect your hilarious mood at all. 

I don't have to comment too much. If you watched the previous Madagascar's movies, I'll guarantee you that Madagascar 3 is the best among them all... Please, watch it if you have such a gloomy, bad mood of the week. I'l give 5 stars solid! =)

I'm Just a Baby Girl. Lalala~

I have to work on a new plan because I have to cancel my LEAVE on 4th June (Monday). We are planning to go Kelantan as my coursemate is getting married. The day after the ceremony, we're planning to go to Pulau Kapas. It's already fascinating just to think about it. This will be the first vacation with my coursemates after 2 years graduation. We've been planning for more than a month and recently, I have to cancel my leave. So, apparently, I have to get back to Klang on Sunday because I need to go to work on Monday.


Please, don't ask me why I have to cancel my leave. I don't even have a slight mood to remember anything about that. I am TOO FRUST to re plan. That's why I'm writing.


The most stupid thing is that, I cried the day I was told  to withdraw my leave and the whole department were talking about it. I cried ok? I mean, I CRIED? seriously. Dem. I didn't mean to create such a drama but, I'm too frustrated I guess? 


Well, now I calm down. That's why I'm writing. I want to remember about this and be able to laugh on myself for my stupidity later. Hopefully. Let's just say that this is how I recover? :p

Pantun

This is the stage, where I used to perform my pantun. It's not a performance though for us who participate. It's a performance for those who watched. :p It's a competition and I'm represent my team, Pasukan Pantun Sri Cendana from Kolej Tun Syed Nasir. Oh my, how i miss those days very much.

I involved in pantun since secondary school. Thanks to Zuhri who kept me stay back after school and Pn Mahani who gave a chance to join the team even though I'm not good at it. Back then, we were the best in Selangor. We represent Selangor for Pertandingan Pantun Kebangsaan. Fascinating ha? Who knows pantun has the other side. I mean other than being used in kahwin semua. =)

I continue participate in pantun when I was studying in UKM. It's totally different and I love it the most, my favourite campus life activity. I love the team a lot, I love the competition itself, I love being a part of the whole pesta pantun in Bangi. You can't imagine that except you put yourself in my shoe. I thought the same too until I, myself join the whole thingy. =)

Now, nothing. The picture above was taken in 2012. I'm graduated and I came to UKM Bangi just to watch the final competition. Still gave a goosebumps. It shows how I passionate about pantun I guess? =) 

Here some pictures of my days back then. Pemantun Kedua KTSN. =)

Mirror Mirror

Picture credit to google.

I've heard about this movie from a radio station. They read the synopsis, and I was like "I'LL WATCH THIS MOVIE FOR SURE!!!" The synopsis is good enough to attract me. Some more, it's Julia Roberts as a step mother. of course I'm going! :)

I love the starting of the movie where Julia being a narrator. a good script though about Snow White. mumbling about Snow White. the sarcastic of this modern fairy tale, is awesome! hahaha... and to be honest, that's the only thing i like about this movie. duh~

the idea is so good but the story telling is messy, too fast, too predictable. it's modern side of Snow White... but... erm~~~

Snow White is too innocent, too 'nice', too gedik if you understand my point and suddenly become a heroin~ the start of the movie is sarcastic enough, and then there she comes. nice, innocent and very d typical malay style heroin. sory~ my bad.

'mirror mirror' doesn't play a good character, not good enough, not cruel enough actually. :p

BUT! i loveeee the costumes, the props, the setting, the make up, soooo nice! :D

and actually, i wish to see the cute side of the dwarfs where i used to admire back then. the cute beds, fork and spoon, things like that. tapi tidak ditekankan dalam movie ini ya!

well, maybe i expect too much from this movie. i do expect a difference like the sarcastic step mother, the more tough and masculinity side of Snow White, the cool prince. somethings like that. and only Julia Roberts as step mother plays the character well. (maybe I'm bias because i do like her in the first place) HEEE...

so, my rating is 3.7 stars. sorry Julia. i want to give 4 but thanks to the 'Snow White' yang gedik, i minus 0.3. :p it's worth to watch though. Enjoy!

KisAh kEdAi mAkaN

kisah ni berlaku beberapa minggu yang lepas.

aku baru balik kerja. sampai klang dalam pukul 8 malam dah. nak pergi cari dinner ni, terasa nak makan kuew tiau tomyam kedai kelantan ni. sedap, ala2 thai pun ada.

aku order kuew tiau tomyam dengan air milo ais. bungkus. lepas order, aku bangun kejap pergi kedai sebelah. tak sampai 5 minit pun, aku datang balik, tunggu makanan sampai. sayangnya, tempat duduk aku tadi di ambil orang. aku pun terfikir, nanti order sampai berdasarkan meja ke, tidak ye? boleh ke aku tukar tempat duduk ni? memandangkan abang yang ambil order aku tadi dah nampak aku, aku yakin dia ingat lagi muka aku. dia faham kot. aku duduk meja sebelah. meja yang sebelum ini aku duduk pun tengah order, bungkus juga.

5 minit kemudian, datang satu keluarga ini. sepasang suami isteri mungkin yang agak berusia, dengan seorang perempuan muda belasan tahun mungkin. 3 orang semuanya. order mereka sudah dicatat. mereka dine in.

10 minit seterusnya, datang lagi satu keluarga. suami isteri dengan anak kecil mereka. juga dine in. air milo aku pun siap. ok, aku yakin dia tahu aku tukar meja. =)

15 minit kemudian, datang satu lagi keluarga. suami isteri dengan 4 orang anak kecilnya. yang sibuk berlari2 mengejar seekor kucing.

selepas 20 minit aku duduk, keluarga pertama dapat makanan mereka. lepas 30 minit aku duduk, dapat pula keluarga kedua makanan yang diorder. aku pelik sikit, mana aku punya? sedangkan aku punya satu je. tak apalah. mungkin priority untuk yang dine in agaknya. cuba positif.

selepas 40 minit aku duduk, datang pula sekeluarga cina. aku ingat sebab jarang nampak keluarga berbangsa cina di kedai melayu. kagum rasa hati. sepasang suami isteri dengan dua orang anak mereka. sekolah rendah mungkin. 4 orang satu meja.

45 minit berlalu. datang seorang lelaki, duduk selang dua meja dari aku. bungkus.

50 minit dah aku tunggu. abang sebelah meja yang duduk di meja aku asalnya, dapat makanan. aku mula buat muka. aku datang dulu kot? sabar zira, sabar. adik yang hantar makanan untuk abang sebelah tu, datang tegur.

"akak! akak order apa?" katanya.

"kuew tiau tomyam, bungkus" ringkas jawabku. dia berlalu.

sejam kemudian. keluarga dengan 4 orang anak kecil dapat pesanan masing-masing. di ikuti dengan keluarga bangsa cina tadi. aku makin panas. duduk tak betul dah. ok, positif. mereka semua makan kat sini. ada anak2 kecil. priority mungkin. aku bungkus je. **walaupun satu**.

datang seorang perempuan ke meja aku. membawa plastik merah. aku gembira tapi pelik. kenapa ada bungkusan polisterine?

"siap dah kak. nasi putih dengan ayam goreng kunyit kan?" katanya dengan dialek kelantan yang pekat.

aku mengeluh dan menggeleng kepala. "kuew tiau tomyam dik. satu. bungkus," sengaja aku tekankan perkataan satu itu. dia berlalu. cuba mencari siapa tukang order nasi tadi. aku duduk semula.

tak lama kemudian, lelaki yang datang selepas 45 minit kedatangan aku, dapat makanan yang dibungkusnya. aku terus panas dan hilang sabar. air milo ais dah hampir cair. ini bukan pasal bungkus atau dine in lagi dah. aku tengah hormon tak stabil. memang selamat tinggallah.

aku bangun,. aku keluarkan duit secukupnya untuk air milo ais yang aku order. aku tinggalkan atas meja bersama-sama air milo tadi. memang aku takkan ambil la of course. abang yang tulis order aku tadi datang tiba-tiba.

"tak dapat lagi ke dik?" katanya. aku buat bodoh dan terus berlalu. adik yang bertanya tadi pun terpinga-pinga. aku tak jerit, aku tak buat kes. aku berambus dengan senyap tapi masam sahaja.

tapi dalam hati..........................................................

AGAK2 LA! BERAPA FAMILY YANG DATANG LEPAS AKU?! DENGAN BERAPA BANYAK ORDER, SEMUA DAH DAPAT! AKU YANG SATU MAKANAN NI PUN TAK DAPAT. KALAU DIA PRIORITIZE KAT ORANG DINE IN, MACAM MANA PULAK DENGAN LELAKI YANG BUNGKUS MAKANAN DIA, DATANG 45 MINIT SELEPAS AKU BOLEH DAPAT DULU? KALAULAH KERTAS ORDER AKU TERCICIR, DAH 2 ORANG PEKERJA DIA TANYA AKU ORDER APA. DAH TAHU TERUSLAH BUAT! PANAS!!

itu kejadian beberapa minggu lalu. kebetulan pula, tadi terserempak dengan pekerja kedai tu. budak yang pertama sekali tanya aku. kami terempak dekat kedai makan lain.

dia datang ke arah aku. sumpah tak ingat mula2.

"ini duit akak kan?" katanya. terus aku teringat drama beberapa minggu lepas tu! duit air milo yang aku bayar tapi aku tak ambil pun air tu!

"tak yah la" balasku malas. dia tak hirau dan terus pergi, tinggalkan duit atas meja. kata MAAF pun tidak, sebab kesalahan yang pernah kedai dia buat kat aku. expect aku nak ambil? aku ego la kan! maaf pun tak?!

lepas dapat makanan yang aku order, aku pergi. aku jeling budak tu untuk tunjukkan, AKU TAKKAN AMBIL DUIT KAU LETAK TU. aku tinggalkan duit tu atas meja dengan selamba.. selamat tinggal dik.

aku bukan jenis orang yang suka buat drama macam ni. kalau biasa, aku akan terus angkat tangan dan tanya. mana saya punya? itu je. dan tunggu dengan sabar. tapi tidak hari itu. dan ego aku mengatakan, aku tak salah, dan aku tak fussy. end of story.

Underworld Awakening

image credit to Mr. Google

this is not the movie that i want to watch in the first place. but there's no other movie available.. :p surprisingly, this movie is awesome! lucky~ number of friends of mine said that this movie is not that bad. ada yang kata NO GOOD. ada yang kata best gila. here's my word. :)

i admirer Selena, cast by Kate Beckinsale. She brings the character so well and alive! she's so cool, the way she walks is the best part of her cool character! no need to mention la kan all the action scene. of course she's cool, cool, cool and smart. :) sampaikan I don't mind when 'Selena' actually saved one of the vampire by putting her hand into his chest and pumps his heart. Duh? mati hidup semula? boleh tak apply kat semua vampire yang terkorban itu? lalalala~ yang penting, SHE'S COOL! suka suka suka! pandai u berlakon. sila berguru ya semua..

the idea of the movie is perfect walaupun jalan cerita is a little bit messy and complex. a lot of discussion going on inside the cinema actually~ yah, everyone is the director.. "aku rasa dia ni bla2 la." "ooo, mungkin dia bla3 kot" something like that la kan.

plot and storyline a bit messy but still, creative. Selena is so cool, no doubt.. The idea of the movie itself is the best among all Underworld's movies, as far as I can recall.. Thumbs up! I'd give 4.5 stars.

Sherlock Holmes - a Game of Shadows

credit to Yahoo! images

I love to watch this kind of movie. investigation, clues, adventurous, nervous jantung. yang bukan hantu2 of course. and I personally like Sherlock Holmes ok since I watched Detective Conan. hahahaha...

ok, comments. macam biasa, the setting is very superb! the props tahun dulu2, sangat cantik dan menjadi. sound effects tak payah komen, of course hebat. memang terasa sangat babak nervous2 ni.

I admire habis dengan penulis skrip movie ni. every sentences are nicely written dengan sedapnya. thumbs up!

dan seperti movie Holmes yang 1st, saya sangat2 suka "relationship" Holmes dengan Dr Watson. hahaha... penuh dengan elemen humor dan shows value of friendship. :D

tapi, cerita kali jauh lebih kompleks at the beginning compare the first Sherlock Holmes movie last year. mula2 serius tak faham isu apa dia nak siasat ni? blur gila. last2 baru simple dan senang faham. dan paling tak di gemari ialah isu tu sendiri. agak political creating a world war, bla2~ tak seronok motif pembunuhan yang dia siasat2 ni. isk~

dan sangat tak sangka Irene Adler mati betul2 dari awal. dulu watak dia punyalah penting kot... dan ending pun tak cukup saspen sebab tak tahu cara Holmes boleh survive dengan hebatnya. tunjuklah sikit. heee.. I'm demanding.

so, overall nak cakap yang saya memang dah suka cerita ni in the first place walaupun belum tengok. hehe.. so, 4 stars.. :)

aRRogaNt dEnTisT

There's one dental clinic near my house where I often go for my check up and follow up since I HATE milk and I might have a problem with calcium intake, which is good for our bones and teeth. :P

I did a lot of treatment with this dentist. You have no idea how much money that I've used so far for my teeth and gum. but I went to this clinic since beginning, so I have to follow up with her. HAVE TO cause I don't like the dentist actually.

I don't really 'hate' her but i hate the way she treats her patient arrogantly. I remember that I've asked her ONE question, a random one actually. and I remember every single words she replied me. sounds like this. "girl, you know what. you should know that you have a very bad teeth. it's not because of you, but you were born with that kind of teeth. you don't ask me about my treatment because you cannot do anything. so do I" WTF!! the way she speaks arrogantly really pissed me off! as usual, I'm speechless. and I smiled! gila~ there's more than this. until i become immune.

Until today. I reached my limit after she answered my question. guess what she said?

"You are a very difficult patient," she said. PISSED ME OFF!!!! just because I'm asking a question, I'm difficult?????? I lost my temper in front of other patients. I care nothing anymore! so I replied her with a very high amplitude voice. we had an argument for the first time.

"I'm a doctor and you try to explain me about that?" this is one of her replied when I try to ASK her about bridge and crowns. I'm ASKING and she said, I'm explaining???? doktor apa tuh!!!! duduk malaysia, tapi tak faham bahasa sendiri??

"I'm not explaining, I'm just asking" i shouted. lepas tu I bengan dan membebel dengan marahnya! terpaksa mengeluh and terus ask for the price of the scaling treatment I did earlier today.

she tried to tell me something lepas tu and then I just said "you're a doctor. so, whatever. how much is the price for today?" puas hati aku!

and guess what. she gave me an appointment date on the 21st to RELATE my question and her explanation. MOTIVE???????????????????

seriously la, she expect me to come to her stupid clinic and pay a lot just to listen to your stupid answer? some more after this big argument? gila. memang tak pernah langsung nak gaduh2 walaupun dah lama sangat simpan perasaan menyampah dan the urge to punch her, on her face. sebab I sayang gigi I ok!

so, doktor2 gigi sekalian. anda doktor. belajar tinggi2. saya bukan tahu sangat pasal gigi tapi saya cari juga info kat internet everytime my arrogant dentist explain something. tapi of, course. I'm a patient, she's a doctor. she knows well. my problem is that, I like to ask. a very2 simple question and definitely has something to do with my own teeth! I want to know, that's why I'm asking. don't be so arrogant, berlagak nak mampus, jawab tak kena pada soalan lepas tu blaiming your patient kononnya I EXPLAIN padahal I try to ask! serius doktor gigi paling *&*$#&^@%*! pernah aku jumpa. i'm glad i had that argument, shouting and able to give her my last sentence yang dah lama sangat nak cakap iaitu "whatever"dengan muka malas nak layan . serius dah lama pendam dialog tu untuk dilepaskan dengan yakin kat dia! huh!!

hari yang BERAPI~~~~~~~~~

2o12~

2012

jadi pendiam? yosh!!

rasa sangat2 nak sambung belajar tapi semangat belum cukup kuat untuk survey. maksudnya, mari cari pengalaman dengan bekerja bersungguh2 dulu. :)

** post ni macam tak ada motif. tapi sebab ramai yang cerita pasal tahun baru, nak jugak update. tak adalah nampak blog bersarang sangat kan? I memang berfikiran jauh**